Thursday, June 30, 2005

haha! i saw someone's boyfriend today... didn't expect my eyes to be so sharp. okay lah not bad. fairly tall not bad-looking. at first not sure was staring all the way. i guess he felt my piercing eyes bahx. or he wouldn't have turned and stared back at me. shit. so pai seh. hope he don't know. =X

yay! i have sharp eyes afterall!

but oh well.. he's not my boyfriend. as long as he's not mean or anything can le. looks pretty decent too.

haiyah. i'm blogging here coz i don't feel like studying. been doing that the whole week and with a variety of 3 subjects, it gets kinda boring sometimes. it's strange how we always complain that we have no time to study.. yet if given more time, i bet we'll still be saying the same thing huh. and it amazes me at just how we still manage to pull through and sit throughout for hours and hours of paper! cool huhz.

everytime you ask me for favours so minute and small, i've neither rejected nor refused to do them thinking that if i can help of course i will. everytime you ask me for those nice smses to send it to her, i'd sms them to you. each time you ask me to do something for someone else or to help you with something, of course i'd gladly help. even when it's for someone's else belated birthday that was in march which you remembered but forgot all about mine. nope. i decided that i won't be that petty and fault you over such things that were seemingly unimportant and insignificant to you which of course definitely doesn't include my birthday. (coz my birthday cannot be insignificant!)

perhaps you were a nice friend too. listening me out sending me nice songs.. but i guess that was all i'd ever rememeber of you. each time upon your request i'd send you nice smses which i knew was going to her, and i can't help but wonder if i would ever in my whole life recieve one from you. having known you for so long, not once did you even send me a nice cute sms. i think sometimes you talk to me coz you need to talk to someone, not coz you want to. feel so used by you. i used to think that perhaps it was coz i was a special friend to you hence the attitude. but whatever. that's the past. maybe you don't mean to, but what the heck ya. once, twice, thrice.. and countless of times. stupid snob. hmphz. so irritated!!! don't care le lah.

yes! today finish all the papers for physics!! so happy so happy! now i can rest before maths tmr! yay! so sleepy.. but i felt like i had to come online to blog. alrightz! two more days! two more days before all papers officially ends and.. oh manz.. yeah.. training starts. the beginning of an end. never mind... now it's coming to july sia.. about 3 more weeks or so. but joan's competition starts first! good luck darling!

hahaz, yesterday hao peng you was nice.. he was kinda msging me while i studied lah. or else i think i would have fallen asleep. though i took really long to reply. oh and the school hall's aircon is so damn cold! haha, makes all the money that we donated worth it huh.

oh and everyone's sick these few days. i think the flu bug is infatuated with me. it doesn't wanna leave me. please go away you dumb dumb flu bug. oh!! and that day! hao peng you say my behind shoulders look so broad like guy!! shit. that's not exactly wad i would have liked to hear. haha! oh no! how?!

oh and i saw ngiam today! haha, so funny so funny! everytime i see ngiam i always want to laugh. haha, he was studying physics and i had a physics paper. so he was going through some definations with me. stupid lor. he asked me to define distance. haha and i laughed at him. but later the physics come out the definations of velocity and acceleration. wah. lucky never come out distance. if not i think i can ask ngiam come back and laugh at me.
and our new timetable is superdupermicroscopicextraordinary long! eh.. maybe as compared to 4 sub one not very ahz.. but still!

alright it's raining!!!! whee! time to go sleep get some rest!

tricia came. tricia saw. tricia thought. tricia wrote. tricia left. hee.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

hahaz! i'm so happy! i asked bryan tan weixiong to help me solve this stupid maths problem that's been bothering me for days and he did it! i'm so amazed! haha, but it feels good to finally get it solved. i mean not beacause maths mid years is tmr but if i don't solve it, it'll be constantly on my mind! yay! so happy! thank you bryan tan weixiong!

my stupid flu won't go away! it makes my voice sound so nasal. yucks.

oh my mummy told me something sad yesterday.
last time when i was small i used to play with her friend's son who was i think older than me by a year? haha, i still have vague recollections of us playing together but then some time back i heard my mummy say he had this china girlfriend.. and she even stayed over at his house sometimes. coz he's actually fairly wealthy.. then they broke up! then he changed a lot i guess. i think he's depressed or something? coz he's like just playing his computer game everyday? he doesn't even go to school. i think it was reported in the papers once about this illness where this guy played computer games everyday. it's kinda psychological.

aiyahz. it just makes me feel kinda sad that things turned out this way. coz afterall i do remember that he was nice to me when i was small. he's also kinda handsome too. last time. coz now he's just eating and playing game. then my mummy told her friend to take him seek help, but my mummy's friend was reluctant.. and she doesn't know how to bring it across to her son. and he doesn't even steps out of the house now. so how? haha, i also don't know.. but i hope he gets better soon!

alrightz! i want to log off le! gotta try some maths! yeapz~ goodnight tricia! hee.

oh no! my calculator has gone cranky! haha, it was a bit cranky during physics paper le but i forgot all about it. but not to worry! my papa has gone downstairs to help me see if they can change the batt. maybe it's the batt. hope it's the batt. if not i'm dead! haha, tmr is maths paper le. please let it be the batt!

Sunday, June 26, 2005

i went to library to study with xiao sam today! wahz.. long time never see him le. haha, and he wore a pink shirt. wad's with guys wearing pink shirts nowadays?! haha, i mean there's nothing wrong.. but now like so common like that.

haha, anyway the library was pretty noisy. don't know there's this children's programme or something. and the cafe like had this whole group of friends who were supposedly suppose to study but ended up talking so damn loud. haha, but nvm. i guess i still tried to study. yay.

haha. oh anon. i think i got it when you said you get the msg. ahz.. i didn't mean goodbye in that way ahz.. hope you're not angry! i also don't know why i typed it down but i definitely didn't mean it that way! sorry! and yeapz.. good luck for mid years and take care!

ahz. and i hope. someone finds her faith back. i believe it's always there and will always be there. haha, as me and joan always say when we fail our tests, this is just a small obstacle in our way. we're meant for greater things! don't laugh hor! it's just something to encourage us! hope this will help you too! jia you manz!

hmmm.. are you who i think you are?

Saturday, June 25, 2005

hey! i almost watched initial d or looks like love today. aiyahz. but then in the end nv watch. coz not time, so disappointed. next week is mid years le and.. haha. don't know lah. don't care. just try my best!

hey! today i keep sneezing. i thought i was feeling better le. but apparantly i thought wrong. i seriously think is someone thining of me. okay! faster confess! who?! don't think le k. i very ke lian. haha! own joke ownself laugh.. =D hee.
haha, but today despite me having "running nose" i went for 3k run! 2 rounds outside school! so proud of myself. i ask john john to let me run first coz he surely run faster than me. then after that i wait for him then we go do push ups. he do pull ups also. but i never. coz cannot. haha. try ah try.

tell you a secret. actually esther and bey suppose to do exercises de lor. is both of themmsg me yesterday to ask me whether i coming school and wanna do exercises not. then in the end? ayez.

oh yah! i woke up today for my dental appointment at 10!! so early. then the doctor say one more month then can take out braces le!! yeahz!! can't wait. but i'll have it taken off after competition. =D then after that me and my mummy went to eat breakfast. we decided to go coffeebean and try out their breakfast. wahz. don't ever go there eat. waste money. it's damn expensive and the stuff looks normal. so yeahz.

then i went back school to study. then after that went to tm to eat dinner with family. haha! and hue kaixiong called me! i missed his call. but i was surprised. then i call back and he ask me where i was. coz he thought i was at tm. actually i was going there. just not there yet. coz he saw bey yan and esther i think. so he thought i was there. anyway. kinda surprised.

just now weiqiang msg me! he say coach say must at least run 10k twice a week. haha, and you know i don't really like to run. then i tell him don't bluff me. coach say 3k one week and do push up lor. then he still deny. then after that i really believe then he say he joking only. haha, i knew it!! so childish. always trying to bluff me. then he say must pass on the msg.
so.. all canoeist j1 and j2, if you happen to read this!! you have to read this!
please run about 3k or more per week for this mid years week and please do your push ups and stuff. okay?! okay! good. must do ahz! hee. =D

oh! and today dharma studied with us! then i teach him maths!

nightz!

just now i asked cheryl teo if she would like to share noodles with me. then i go cook the noodles. so she said anything. cook finish ready come and call her come out it. then. i went through the hassle of cooking the maggie mee, which is really a hassle to me since i seldom cook noodles, and she told me that she's feeling very full. i just stared at her blankly. and said fine. so i ate the noodles. plus her share. luckily it adds up to one packet of noodles coz we were sharing.

so irritating lah she. i had to wash and extra bowl and everything. so waste water. aiyahz. whatever lah. i've already done everything. no more next time! i won't believe her again!

sometimes the things you most expect turns out to be wrong, sometimes your guess just isn't right at all. you see me but you walk right through. all i want is just a little time from you.

let's just be friends.

lalala...

boo.

oh! and hao peng you is so nice. he sent me a nice sms to tell me to take care! haha, coz in school i keep sniffing. thank you!!
don't so stressed out for maths! jia you!!

Friday, June 24, 2005

today i went to school and study! i waslike doing maths one whole day sia~ phew! damn taxing.. in the end i didn't even get to study physics and econs. then i think i do too much maths ahz. could feel a headache coming up. then now i got flu!!

oh no!! haha, maybe someone is thinking of me then i keep sneezing! hahaz, today i saw keith koh! finally! after such a long long time.. haha, as usual he admitted he never study much. aiyoz. so much church activities sia~

oh manz. it's so hard to keep sneezing!! but then again, i would rather prefer to sneeze than to cough.

i saw joan today after a long long time! haha, and miss ang rebond her hair! haha, makes her look younger!

anywayz.. i shall stop here. keep sneezing.. eyes so teary.

ciaoz.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

yay!!!! i've watched mr and mrs smith! wahaha. yes! now i left initial d and a lot like love! somehow someway, i'll watch them!

hahaz, today was a fun day! coz i went out with boon luan esther bey and shir! it's always fun when we go out! coz we will be very happy and tease each other! and we will talk a lot! haha, first we went to bugis! oh and i overslept! so sorry!
haha, we went to eat lunch at this restuarant.. service there... not very good.. but when they say big milkshake, the milkshake they give is really very big! anyway it was a fufilling lunch and i enjoyed myself!

after that we went bugis street and the shopping centres and we drank bubbletea! whee! was waiting for that moment to drink bubbletea! haha, and along the way my slippers keep making piak piak piak sound. coz is i make de! haha so fun! but very funny. then in the end by the time we watch movie, chan boon luan who ask us out today coz she needed to buy lots of stuff ended up with nothing at all! haiyo. haha, then bey and shir each bought stuff. then we went to watch movie and after which boon finally bought a bag! haha! -clap hand-

then i had to take bus home with boon as always since we live so near. oh and i have to say something first! today when i went out with them, i carried a small sling bag which is just nice for carrying my hp and mp3. so it was rather small. then when me boon and bey were waiting for bus, boon returned me the microsoft cds that she had borrowed from me. then i was wondering aloud if i could squeeze them in my bag. and that miss chan tried to act clever and said that if i could squeeze them in my small bag she will kneel down for me. well, her actualy words were that she will bai(4) me if i can stuff it in my bag and bey heard them! haha, so i guess i no need to say everybody also knows wad happen lah.. but then boon luan nv keep her word lor! so i promised her that i would write about it in my blog! haha! =P

today whole day go out. nv do work. hmmmz... die. feeling a sense of desperation for mid years. i'm sure i won't do well.. coz.. i guess i haven't been putting a lot of effort to make up for the lost time meant for studying.
haha, and yesterday joan msg me to tell me that she think she mid year also cannot, coz she went for church camp for about one week in malaysia? and never study.
last time me and joan came across this saying that goes something like if you never succeed, don't give up, coz this setback you're facing is only a small detour. haha, then yesterday joan said we've been taking too many detours le lah. haha, yeahz.. coz every test recently we never really pass. i guess, we take detours until we lost? ahz.. nvm then~ haha, tricia jia you bahx!

one of my favourite quotes!

fear is the dark room where negatives are developed!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

hmmz.. today's training was okay! me and en hit a new timing of 10.52! yeahz! was quite proud of it.. but i think there will always be others who can do so much more than us. hahaz, but anyway, yupz!

my sister is so irritating. just now i turned my back on her. then she say that my behind look like a man's backview!!!!! hey! wad sia~ she say coz canoe too much le. but then again, my backview does not. i repeat. does not look like a guys'! i'm a girl through and through. yeah.

anyway.
haha. was just thinking about some stuff. apparantly i feel that i've been kinda busy nowadays with training and studies. it gets me tired mentally and physically that i think i neglect the people around me. hmphz. kinda selfish huh. haha, so i just wanna say i'm sorry!!! for all those whom i've neglected or forget to do things as they really slip my mind! i swear! i didn't purposely forget!

haha, i used to go studying with joan last year before mid-years and we would be in school by 7.30 everyday without fail and without having to sms each other. but then now things have changed! missed studying with her.. but i also enjoy studying with bey they all! though sometimes there is a few miscommunications here and there.

hmmz.
was reading bey's blog about her life. haha. i mean. i knew she was close to lihui they all.. but i didn't know they were so close. i guess it's because they were in the same class? haha. anyway reading it brings back lots of memories. i still think me bey en and elinda were closest in sec1 and closest in sec4. esp during higher chinese. at that time we were just pure happy and everytime we went out after higher chinese lessons, we would chit chat and have fun and there wasn't anything that we couldn't talk about.

actually i guess i haven't always been a good friend. haha, always sms people late and everything. online also reply late. haha, always forgetting to bring stuff and everything.
but then, i guess.. for me it's like, the more i'm closer to you as a friend, the more comfortable i am with you, the more i tend to take you for granted. coz i assume that you know me well enough and i'm more than comfortable in your presence that we don't have to be so polite to each other. (not saying i not polite hor) i mean, like, we can dispense with all the formalities and what-nots coz our friendship goes way beyond that? and to me, between close friends, no words need to be said to know what the other party is thinking. but i guess this unspoken agreement is the thing that can sometimes cause misunderstandings. sometimes, what i do not say or do doesn't mean i don't care, i don't know or that i'm just being mean. i just choose to keep quiet.

i guess in each of our hearts, you and i know wad i'm talking about, and our friendship goes way beyond the superficial misunderstandings. perhaps i've never explained myself before perhaps i've taken too many things for granted and assume a lot! for that i'm really sorry!! really! sorry! haha, yupz. our 6 years of friendship is definitely more than that! hope you feel the same way too.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

oh manz. haha, couldn't resist the urge to come online for a while. really! i'll be gone soon! i swear! haha, but i'm just waiting for dharma to come online so i can pass him the camp photos.. so that's a fairly valid reason for me to come online.. right?!
aiyah whatever. i'll be gone soon anyway.

oh no! i just saw the a lot like love advertisement on tv mobile! now i want to watch that! i don't think i can watch my boyfriend is type b anymore. but i still wanna watch mr and mrs smith, initial d and a lot like love now. ayez. see how bahx. hmmz..

today went studying in school.. not bad.. i guess i completed quite a lot but still not enough lahz. haha. oh yah! yesterday i go ah mah house! then she say i very dark! like indian like that sia~ oh manz. that coming from your own grandmother. haha, but nvm. one more month or so and it'll be over!

i wanna change blogskin! but change to wad?! hmmz.. heehee~ don't tell you all.. next time come then give you all a surprise! wahahaha.

alrighty. tricia was here, and she left!!

Monday, June 20, 2005

haha! hiiiee! it's one more week left to study. and the more i see it, the more i feel my future getting bleak, future for mid years lah. not really the whole future bahx. ahz! speaking of future! hmmz.. don't know that day got one person wish me find a nice husband in future. can't rmb who lah, but thanx! hahaha

anyway, was suppose to go airport today.. but apparantly i overslept lah. ayez. it's a kinda long story, so we shall skip that part. hmmz.. yeahz.. and just now my papa ask me to help him massage his arm coz pain or something i think. haha, but i guess since i'm the one with the most muscles next to him and since he also help me massage my arms sometimes when it hurt, so i did the same for him. so nice of me!

haha, oh yah! and to clarify some stuff lah. i mean, not that anybody will mistaken but still..
although me and john john share ice-cream lah, but then it's not like anything special or something. we also got share ice-cream with the other canoeist lah. i mean, just wanna say although we share but is as friends. haha don't mistaken ahz. although i'm sure john had the privillege of sitting beside me also. haiz. hahah, kidding!

anywayz... the JX on my tagboard is not jianxun but junxian! haha, so surprised! yay! thankie junxian! see you in school soon!

and yes. i decided to exert self-control on myself. since.. it's almost the last week left for studying.. i shall refrain from coming online. yes. self control manz. you think i can do it for one whole week?!
haha, yeahz! i think so! anyway, don't be surprised if i like ocmpletely disappear online. if need be, my handphone will be on! don't miss me people!

Sunday, June 19, 2005

haha.. so tired. was it yesterday that we had training? yeahz. we did. and on thursday we had training too. that's why i was so tired.

haha, but training was not tha bad. haiya. although my strokes a bit funny and it seems like i always never follow my partner, but then i'm already trying my best lah. haha, hopefully can push somemore! our timing altogether have shaved off about 30 to 40 seconds? our newest record is 11 minutes! whee~ haha, although i must say that we improve by quite a bit, i scared it's not enough. from wad i see other schools have been training real hard too. and my only wish for this competition is that i don't wanna get knocked out in the first round.

haha, anyway, i have a club in canoeing! it's called the dimple club! haha, and it's members are dharma me and lim the bey yan! coz we all have dimples! hahah, so cute. i think dharma's dimples are cute but so are mine and lim the bey yans'. oh and i just found out that dharma is a buddhist name i guess and his sister is called millenia? and he's bro is called zen. cool huh. haha

ooh.. anyway yesterday we canoe halfway that time, it started raining more than cats and dogs, it was horrible! haha, but it was so fun and cooling!!! haha, so seldom we get to canoe in the rain. and i was half hoping for coach to let us do like sprints at the last part so we can canoe more in the rain! haha, but then! the rain pelt down so hard on my face! it hurts~ dumb dumb rain. but it was a nice change instead of the sunny sunny sun that shines down hard on me. and my knees. they're becoming over tanned. but it was cooling and cold! and somemore we took wrong bus lah. haha, but quite funny ah us. guess where we went? we went bey bey's house for steamboat! whee! tom yam tom yam tom yam! tom YUM! wahahaha. and didi was so nice to play piano for us. and i did a 3/4 duet with didi. cool huh. and the noodles was yummy. think i ate like 4 to 5 bowls of it! so full! wahaha, bey's mummy tom YUM soup nice! somemore raining day. woo! haha, enjoyed myself. after that we played cards! mainly played bridge and dai dee~ wahaha, play bridge, better hope esther not your partner. coz.. she not say lose a lot lah. just most of the time. haha, anyway thanx bey bey!

wahz. after that eat le then went off with my family to my papa's friend coffeeshop coz he just open it. but i too full le so only drink teh-ping. then my mummy down there chit chat with her friends and everything lah. haiz. and i was quite bored. lucky was smsing kaixiong so not that bad. relieve some of my boredom. then my mummy they all shift over to include me in their conversation. i just knew it lor! she wanna talk bad about me to her friends. haiz. whatever lah. let her.

yay! today was benjy's birthday! happy happy birthday! haha, and all the canoeing girls decided they wanted to wear skirt go out today.. so yeahz.. i got a chance to wear my new skirt. and yeapz. my first time wearing skirt. haha, when i got there guess the guys were like quite shocked to see me wearing skirt. haha, so embarrassing! but nvm! i look pretty okay!haha, and we went nydc eat! woo! so nice! haha, then the waiter there was attentive lah. so we wrote a good comment for him in the comment card. or rather esther wrote it. i rmb his name was farhan. good jpb farhan! you have won yourself our appraisal. then we bump into hue kaixiong. haha, maybe it was just a coincidence lah, but i got tell him we were going nydc eat.
anyway after that went to esplanade! wow! so cool! so many things to see! and it was bustling with activities. haha, then after that we walk walk then went home le. so tired.

hmmz... not sure wad to type anymore. oh yah! at nydc, john john had a chance to sit beside me! haha, and we share ice cream!! yummy! haha, but he quite dumb. he thought the ice cream we order is two scoops and both same flavour. haiz. not very smart ahz. think he should drink the E = mc^2 drink at nydc. it's a genius drink. hahaha, next time sit together k! =D

hmmz.. can anyone here tell me the meaning of the word astalavista?

ciaoz. tired manz. hee~

Thursday, June 16, 2005

haha, i thought the dating test was quite a fun thing. i mean of course since it only pointed out the good traits in you. who wouldn't wanna hear good things about yourself anyway. yeahz. i was feeling pretty smug about it until that mohd yasin had to come and point out to me that intellectual was the 9th trait that i had out of ten traits. thanx.

like whatever! haha. so irritating. i'm going to tell joan when she comes back! oh yah. joan has gone for church camp in malaysia. sigh. won't be seeing her much till we get back to school huh.

yesterday had higher chinese gathering. it was pretty fun seeing everyone again! haha, so wonderful and nice. yeah! thanx bey for organising and everything. xin ku ni le!

haha, had to rush down after training. speaking of which. training was okay.

training training and studying. i really wanted to watch the movie my boyfriend is type b. but it was only showing in orchard. then i wanted to watch mr and mrs smith. but i guess when i really find the time to watch, it'll be on the dvd player or something. next show i'm anticipating is initial d. i' really going to have to watch that. but. the mid years are coming and i'm scared! haha. haven't been studying much. no motivation at all! see. i'm here online just like every other night~ even that hue kaixiong is studying now and doing his tutorials. haha, die.

haha, was browsing through friendster just now and i came across zir zir's profile. makes me think of how much i really miss him. just having him around really brightens up my day even though he can be ultimately irritating and immature.
haha, i really miss the times we had in 3/7 and 4/7 being in the same class with him for 2 years. the memories and joy i have, has made me believe even more that the decision i made 3 years ago was the best one i've ever made. sure, there were times when i have questioned myself and asked if that was what i really wanted and wad would have been different if i actually stayed on. yet, each time the conclusion i arrigve at would always be the same.. i would have never been as happy as i was back then.

haha, true, i was one smart ass back in sec 1 and 2. but i believed it was hardwork that brought me to where i was. of course i was proud of myself. but i hated it when people started comparing results with me. it made me nervous. it was like i had to live up to their expectations. this comparing made me feel like i had this special position in class i had to maintain coz that was that was expected of me. i would sort of try to find out the results of others to see if they had done better than me or something and i didn't like it. and if they won me, i would push myself even more and wonder why i lost to them. nahz. i didn't like that.

haha, anyway enough of the past. i miss zir zir. and that's that. sigh.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Your dating personality profile:

Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.

Your date match profile:

Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Funny
2. Athletic
3. Big-Hearted
4. Liberal
5. Adventurous
6. Romantic
7. Practical
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Intellectual
10. Traditional

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Funny
2. Athletic
3. Adventurous
4. Practical
5. Conservative
6. Big-Hearted
7. Romantic
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Sensual
10. Outgoing

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

haha, today is a sunday. supposed to have gone to the airport to study. yeah. but i didn't coz i woke up late and the others were not going.

haha, i've been trying to force myself to study for the mid years. maybe not really. i do enjoy studying to a certain extent. but sometimes at a certain point in life you just need to take a break. stop. think and stare. haha, perhaps daydreaming would be the more appropriate word for me.

anyways.. this entry is coz i'm bored and i don't feel like studying.
hee. at times i really wish i have someone i know i can call when i'm bored. but then again. i haven't been chatting on the phone for ages. at times. i also wish that i can sms someone special when i'm tired or when i'm happy. i also wish for someone to sms at times, to ask me how's my day, or if training has ended and if i'm tired. at times when i feel stress, i wish for someone who would sit beside me when im studying, and tell me that it's time to take a break.

haha, but it is at these times that i realise, there's more to life then just having that special someone.

ahhz. this is such a lousy entry.

should have said something but i've said it enough - blue and yellow

haha, actually i came to my blog to type something. but then i got stuck.
shan't pursue it anymore then. nitez tricia.

hahaha, sorry esther! there! i put one that has your pic in it! nice nice one! sorry lah.. the other pictures is coz you two went to toilet mahx.. =X

esther's request!

something else to smile about...

fear is the dark room where negatives are developed (my favourite!)

watch out for phony or easy solutions to complex problems. when you spot a quack, duck!

one fella had a photographic mind. unfortunately, he never had it developed.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

yay! can see can see?! the pic we took for miss tan's wedding shots! isn't it cool?! haha, i think it's damn nice and miss tan looks so pretty! omg! hahaha, yeapz! it's nice! haha, yeapz. anyway today went out to study and later went to eat a nice dinner with my family. haha, and after that, my mummy and two aunties initiated taking neoprint! hahah, can you believe it. it wasn't me who wanted to take neoprints lor. haha, coz they say i always very busy then so rare we all go out together. haha, sorry lah. ask the school to cancel mid years then maybe won't so busy.

another one!

wedding pic!

Saturday, June 11, 2005

oh no! wad am i doing here so late at night? haha, it's like 3 am in the morning and in a few hours time i'll be at the airport studying..

hee.. well..

just had a nice long chat with you. it's been ages since we've last done that. guess you and i are a little too busy to even say hi or at the very least manage a decent conversation.
it felt good when we chatted, it brings back fond memories about how we used have late night chats just like this. hha.. it's a wonderful feeling.
i know now that the friend i found in you was never once gone.
our friendship still stands strong and firm.
There may be times where it wavers and deviates, but time and tide has proved otherwise.
i'm glad.
glad that you were willing to talk to me.
glad that i'm the one you turned to.
glad that you apologised for not being there for me. and that's all that matters.
of course you were forgiven. i could never hold anything aginst you for long.
and i'm glad that i know. that even if the whole world were to think it's back on me, you will always be my knight in shining armour.
so happy~

thank YOU. for everything.

haiya. before i forget. the day before canoeing camp, i went to ps with boon esther and bey. and we got stuff for our camp. then this boon don't know why recently started calling me tricy. eeyer~ haha, then now everyone starts to call me that. but not to forget, my name is tricia. t r i c i a. yes. good. that's my name.

anyway, i forgot to thank mr lim for treating us drinks. hahah. thank you mr lim!

hmmz.. anyway, just some thoughts of mine.

if only we had been more accomodating, more understanding of each other.
there must be a give and take in every situation and every problem.
i guess every coin has two sides. and each side has their own value.
sometimes life is like a work of art. when you finish the art piece, you step back and admire your work with a critical eye. in life, whatever you do, take a step back once in a while. think, feel and wonder if what you're doing so far is right. ponder on the possible errors you made. sometimes, all it takes is a simple step or a simple way to admit your mistakes, and it is through the word sorry. it's easier to know you have a mistake than admitting to one.

haiz. after seeing esther's blog. i realised that the main objective of the camp, was to bond the j1s and the j2s together. but have we actually accomplished that?

perhaps the camp + the chalet has just succeded in bringing the j1s closer together and the j2s closer together. but that's not what we really wanted right?

come to think of it. i think the j2s are also at fault. coz we didn't really try to mix around with the j1s. it just seems like we're so comfortable in each other's presence now that even if there is any gatherings or anything, we just stick to the group that we're comfortable in. i mean, like why not? the group is fun and happening and everyone is comfortable in everyone's presence. who would want to venture out and mix and mingle around with people you don't really know? i guess that's part of the problem we faced during the segegration of the j2 canoeist too. perhaps we should all go and reflect back one ourselves too?

what if some of the things we were so sure we were right about turned out to be wrong?

i guess we can't always be right..

anyway, just some thoughts. no harm done. just pondering.. but then again, i'm not really one who ponders a lot.. so.. yeahz.. oh wells... i guess i've matured. wheee!

does pondering makes one mature faster?

Friday, June 10, 2005

whee~! i'm back i'm back! and i decided to change my font too!

phew~ the 3 days 2 nightz of canoeing camp has been damn exhuasting. plus the irritating cough that i'm having has totally taken its toll on me. first of all, i would like to say yes! canoeing camp was fun and exciting and i actually enjoyed it more than the chalet =X oops~ haha, but it's the truth!

anyway moving on, i guess this entry of mine is going to be a long one as i need to update myself and be reminded of all the stuff that went on during camp. so, if you're one who wants to get straight to the point and spare the details, maybe you should stop reading here.

ah ha! but i bet you are still here! coz you all want to know wad happen during camp right? okay! i shall tell you!

hmmz.. let me think back first. first day wad did we do. eh. first day i went school. oohz! i think we had games lehz. and i saw ngiam!!! then we run 2 rounds outside school.
haha, yah. then we had games! then me and esther keep same group. and we keep losing. why?! haha, not fair. i think they all play too well le. maybe it's just esther? =X but we lose 3 times in a row. and we had to do forfeit three times!!
poor us. but being so kind and generous, of course we did the forfeits!
then we had lunch.. plus an apple! haha, then we had to go macritchie for training. after that we went to eunos to eat! then by the time we came back school.. we had time to bathe and wash up and it was movie time! we watched army daze and it was really quite funny thought i've watched it like so many times! but i went out halfway coz the j2s had to gather to plan the confidence walk!! whee! we were going to scare the j1s! haha, so fun! then we had to walk round the whole school coz the confidence walk was like around the whole school in the middle of the night. then after walking we saw some policeman entering the school. haiz. it was because while getting some stuff miss tan john john and shir accidently triggered off the alarm. wahz. but our policeman serioiusly not very efficient lah. they came like a few hours after the alarm was triggered. slacking sia~
then we had to go through a dry-run of the confidence walk. and it was quite late le. so we slept!

day 2 of camp!
we had games!!!
yay! early in the morning and we had games to wake up us! hmmz.. i cannot really remember wad we played. oh yah! for breakfast i help jerry make milo for the team! helpful me!
oh okay. then we went to play game. quite fun ah. lucky i never lose again. you know why?
coz esther left the group to prepare her station for the confidence walk. wahaha. then after that i went coz i was the most scared of the whole j2s so they want to use me as tester to see whether the change in esther's station will scare me notz.
hmmz. then after that was lunch! and we had apple! again! then we had one and half hour of study time which was not really enough. then after that we had to do gym. after gym must do some suicide thingy which was like shuttle run like that. do ten times! can die. then.. went to wash up and we went to west plaza for dinner! haha, and that silly mr lim keep calling me kopi-soh! coz of bob. bob is the small bob of hair on my head everytime i tie it up.
then after dinner went 7-eleven to wait for the rest and went to buy snacks for confidence walk. haha, and i got wayne to buy me a lollipop! thank you wayne!!
then.. went back played a few more games and the j2 had to prepare for confidence walk! the highlight of the whole camp!
wow! i think the j1s damn brave. if it's me ah. i won't dare to walk alone.
haha, then later we had to dress up as ghosts! scary not! then when i dress up they all said i dressed up like a school girl going for prom. coz i purposely tie up my hair and make it look messy. then that bey yan they all say i look nicer that way. and that pk keep laughing at me!! no matter how many times i emphasise to him that i'm suppose to look scary. say after me. s c a r y. he say i look funny. haiyah. whatever. but i scare quite a few people hor! wahaha. so fun so fun! then halfway during the break keith koh called me! yay! solong never hear from him le. then just chit chat a while then ask him go study le. keith faster come online! i show you my ghost pictures! you comfirm scared de!
then after confidence walk went back to dance studio and took some pictures celebrate lee jiaqing birthday! happy birthday fei fei! and we slept.

haiz. then 3rd day! help jerry make milo again! yay! but by then i was coughing so badly i didn't went for the last sea training. haiz. so sad. i went home to rest and see doctor! i hate going to the doctor. i hate taking medicine. esp the tablets! disgusting! i hate taking tablets!!!

yay! but all in all. camp was fun!! haha, i enjoyed myself!
thanx j1s! thanx j2s!

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

canoeing chalet was alrightz i guess. i was kinda looking forward to it.. but it turned out to be okay ahz.. not that i didn't enjoy it.. but.. here it goes..

first day.
gosh. i went there late with the girls coz my papa fetching and i wanted to catch up on some work and catch the soccer match that day. yupz. so went late. went there only, kaypoh kaypoh around a bit, and guess wad?! i went to do my maths tutorial! haha, how's that for the first day of chalet huh. haha, but then practically all the j2s were mugging lah. kinda no life hor? haha, bet the j1s must have thought we were kinda pathetic or something. anyway went to sleep after mugging, haha, and since there were like 2 rooms with only one big bed, the girls had to share the bed. then after hat esther and boon cannot sleep, so they went down to play bridge. thenleft me and hiang en sleeping on the bed. ( oh, bey didn't come for the first night) anyway after a while, the guys came up. haha, as usual, ungentlemenly as they are, they chop the bed! didn't wanna let esther and boon sleep there later when they come up! haha, so i ended up sleeping on the same bed with lee jiaqing, ben and weiqiang. i was squashed between weiqiang and hiang en. aiyoz! haha, but nevertheless, yupz.. that's for the first day..

second day of chalet.
haiz. we had to go training! haha, seems liek chalet is kinda like a relax training camp sia~ anyway since the chalet was like kinda isolated by itself, we had to take a shuttle bus to tanah merah mrt station. and the bus comes at like untimely periods of 1 hour and 1 and a half hour. that sucks. so we had to catch the first bus which was at 10.15! or we'll be late for training. but then problem was that some of us walked too slowly and we had to wait for them. but the bus wouldn't. so some of us pretended to get up very very slowly... but the old uncle was pissed at us i guess. coz he had a schedule to meet. but he didn't have to be so mean! grumpy old uncle. yeahz.. anway the rest met up with us after catching the second bus.. oh well.. some of us didn't even go for training at all.. like seriously i got nothing to say lah. just don't understand why you guys don't want come for training.

anyway after training, went back home first before meeting the rest. hmmz. then when we went back there, the guys went to play badketball. then we watched them play. haha! jiaqing so short! he must jump higher to get the ball! but we were laughing and cheering for them anyway. that was one of the highlights of the chalet. anyway there was this other group of small guys who booked the court later. but weiqiang they all played a match with them. haha, and the small guys so cute! they thought weiqiang, jerry, ronald, jiaqing and ben were army guys. haha! then later we went back to bbq. and that ronald keep stealing my food off my plate!

then.. the girls were like very tired.. so we sort of went to sleep. suppose to go star gazing togeher.. but i guess we were really tired. then the guys were quite dumb. they took the remote control and tried to change other people's channel from the different chalet houses! haha, so childish lah! but they didn't succeed! too bad! coz the glass too thick or something bahx. anyway after that slept and went for breakfast with boon, esther, bey, shir, ron, weiqiang, ben, phuy kun and jiaqing. had roti prata and teh-ping! whee! so full!

anyway.. tmr is the canoeing camp. haiz. guess i'm not really looking forward to it. coz i just came home on sun then must leave home again tmr..gosh. like come home leave home. no proper rest i guess. somemore i have this irritating cough which doesn't seem to wanna leave me! please go away! i hate to cough. i don't mind sneezing but not coughing please. oh but i hope i didn't pass my germs round during the chalet! gosh.. anyway.. hope camp will be fun! hope. i'll try to look forward to it..

alrightz! don't miss while i'm gone!! but i'm gonna miss lots of things! esp my bed.. hmmz.. camp... wad about my studies? argh. don't care. try my best bahx.

Monday, June 06, 2005

friday:
today i realised that my classmate emma had suspected case of dengue fever. so poor thing! no wonder past few days like not feeling so good. haiz. so, most of our classmates decided to go visit her! with miss ang! haha, sort of like a mini class outing. very fun!

then after that joan need to go back for training. then i accompany her back otherwise she go back alone, then shun bian watch the soccer match against s201.
haha, 201 got not enough people, then ask yisheng and a few others help them play. then benjy's team got a few canoeist like jayanta mushin phuy kun jiaqing playing. haha, quite and exciting match with so many people injured!
fiirst joan saw weiqiang fall down! so poor thing. then i saw den fall down! aiyo. then later yisheng fall down almost did one somersualt backwards. ouch.
then i give den a plaster coz his hand bleeding! aiyoz! take care the wound den!
and jiaqing almost scored! that was a nice shot but give the keeper block. ayez. wasted sia~

hmmz. at first someone don't want me go watch the match one. then later met at the train station ask joan go watch. and i standing beside joan! bias pig! how can! haha, but then i know he was just kidding de lah. great job defending!

oh. after match must go for canoeing chalet. coz paid le mahx. the j2s were like planning to go there to study. and we did! so guai! haha, i can't believe it. but it was quite nice lah. like amss study session like that. then.. for more details of the camp i must go sleep then later come back and update. very tired sia. just came back from the chalet. =D and i'm still coughing. gosh. after eating the bbq food and drinking more waer than i usually would, i still cough a lot. so poor thing! hope my mummy won't drag me to see the doctor. that's not one of my favourite activity. i hate eating tablets. oh manz. faster get well! later tuesday got training camp. it's not good if we were to be sick. alrighty! off to my bed!

ohz. hee~ i go chalet go for so long then never come online. i bet a lot of people misses me. =D don't worry! i'm back!

Friday, June 03, 2005

yay! i today pon lesson to go training! haha, didn't regret! today's timing was the best! 11.12! not bad! hopefully can improve and reach peak at july. hmmz..
hee!

today miss tan came down macritchie for her wedding photo shot!!!! woo! and she let the canoeist be part of her photo! hahaha! so cute so cute! she damn pretty! haha, her wedding gown very nice! suits her to the max! haha, coz her skin quite tanned, then the gown white colour against her skin, it really stands out! then me and boon scared dirty her gown sia~ she walk then drag the gown, then macritchie there like not very clean lah. then me and boon always have that impulse to want to help her pick up her gown the tail there so won't dirty.

haha, miss tan looks so different from the p.e teacher that she is at mj. wahz. super different. hmmz. i think all girls look really different when they dress up. esp at their wedding day they supposedly damn chio.

okay! ten we had to take different poses!
pose 1:
we had to take our paddles then hold up like the army people hold their sword like that criss-cross. then as they walk pass us we must uncross it. haha, then we all were like singing the wedding anthem song. da da de da!

pose 2:
miss tan's husband open the champange bottle then the water in the bottle splash out! haha, then he spray onto us! lucky i hide behind weiqiang! heehee~ then most of them kena the champange. so sticky! then miss tan had to drink the champange like nupital wine like that then we all must act act and clap in the background! hahah, that part super funny!

pose 3: miss tan kiss her husband!
haha, then we all must stand behind them and watch like very happy like that. haha

pose 4:
catch the bouquet! yay! this part most fun! miss tan must throw the wedding bouquet then the photgrpaher ask us to catch! then she threw it 3 times coz the photographer not happy with the shots. haha! weiqiang caught it all 3 times!!! oh no! then boon don't have! haha

the few poses are like the more main ones. the rest still okay.. haha, but it was fun! that day very happy~ hee~

Thursday, June 02, 2005

yesterday had training! but so few little people went down. but still.. training was not that bad! managed to get quite a good timing of 11.20 for 2k! the best timing so far sia~
but that ang hiang en. tell her not to go down she damn stubborn lah. sick le still want to do exercises and everything. and want to spread germs to me! bad girl!

then after that me bey shir went to orchard just to get bey's slipper. we should have just gone straight to plaza sing lah. coz that bey made us walk from orchard all the way down to plaza sing. so tiring!

oh!!! but when we went to plaza sing i saw two extremely tall guys! even taller than jayanta and yisheng! wahz. so impressed. then one of them suddenly turn and almost knocked into me. i bet that's coz he couldn't see me!

oh and i saw two cute babies yesterday! one was at bk. coz i was sort of nodding my head to the tempo of the music then the baby follow me do!! haha! he's so cute!! then one was at the train! so cute so cute!

oh. and today is yixin's birthday. happy birthday! hope he likes the present i bought. keith they all so childish. i don't tell them wad i bought for yixin then they all ignore me. no thanx to eng yisheng who ask them to ignore me. how can! somemore that keith use water gun and squirt me yesterday! so small boy hor!

hmmmz. should i pon econs tmr? coz i want go training! and miss tan going to take her wedding shots at macritchie! then she say we can be part of the picture coz we can hold the paddles like the army people hold their swords! so nice! i want go! haha

oh! somemore meaningful words!

today is the tomorrow you were optimistic about yesterday

with dreams, there is no need to go to dreamland via drugs and alcohol

there! that's it! i'm done! ciaoz