haha, i thought the dating test was quite a fun thing. i mean of course since it only pointed out the good traits in you. who wouldn't wanna hear good things about yourself anyway. yeahz. i was feeling pretty smug about it until that mohd yasin had to come and point out to me that intellectual was the 9th trait that i had out of ten traits. thanx.
like whatever! haha. so irritating. i'm going to tell joan when she comes back! oh yah. joan has gone for church camp in malaysia. sigh. won't be seeing her much till we get back to school huh.
yesterday had higher chinese gathering. it was pretty fun seeing everyone again! haha, so wonderful and nice. yeah! thanx bey for organising and everything. xin ku ni le!
haha, had to rush down after training. speaking of which. training was okay.
training training and studying. i really wanted to watch the movie my boyfriend is type b. but it was only showing in orchard. then i wanted to watch mr and mrs smith. but i guess when i really find the time to watch, it'll be on the dvd player or something. next show i'm anticipating is initial d. i' really going to have to watch that. but. the mid years are coming and i'm scared! haha. haven't been studying much. no motivation at all! see. i'm here online just like every other night~ even that hue kaixiong is studying now and doing his tutorials. haha, die.
haha, was browsing through friendster just now and i came across zir zir's profile. makes me think of how much i really miss him. just having him around really brightens up my day even though he can be ultimately irritating and immature.
haha, i really miss the times we had in 3/7 and 4/7 being in the same class with him for 2 years. the memories and joy i have, has made me believe even more that the decision i made 3 years ago was the best one i've ever made. sure, there were times when i have questioned myself and asked if that was what i really wanted and wad would have been different if i actually stayed on. yet, each time the conclusion i arrigve at would always be the same.. i would have never been as happy as i was back then.
haha, true, i was one smart ass back in sec 1 and 2. but i believed it was hardwork that brought me to where i was. of course i was proud of myself. but i hated it when people started comparing results with me. it made me nervous. it was like i had to live up to their expectations. this comparing made me feel like i had this special position in class i had to maintain coz that was that was expected of me. i would sort of try to find out the results of others to see if they had done better than me or something and i didn't like it. and if they won me, i would push myself even more and wonder why i lost to them. nahz. i didn't like that.
haha, anyway enough of the past. i miss zir zir. and that's that. sigh.
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