Wednesday, August 31, 2005

oh no!!!! owen is going to newcastle!!! can you believe it?! he's going to newcastle!!! damn it man. wah laoz. he cannot go to newcastle!! he must come back liverpool!! how can how can how can! i so angry!!

why can't liverpool buy him back! offer him 8 million? obviously it's so not going to work. but newcastle?! and i don't support newcastle! and owen origins from liverpool. heyz! so not fair. why the silly manager can't offer owen a contract like before newcastle! then he wouldn't have to go over. i'm so angry.

and now i hate real madrid lah. how can they keep buying so many players! buy and buy. think wad. keep stock ah. stock never use for a long time also will go bad or expire de okay. simple logic also don't know. got money also not like that waste wad.

but i want owen to come back to liverpool!

hmphz. so angry.

haiyo. shall not think about it. it's not nearly so comfirmed yet. maybe there will be a miracle.

anyway, i think i'm too mature for my age.
today i was walking at the interchange then always there's this group of people doing surveys on working adults, so i got approached 3 times!!!

argh. can't help it that i'm matured. but i hate it when they find out that you're a student then they will like realise their mistake and quickly like make some kind of small chat with you.

like the last guy who approached me. i told him i was 18 and he asked if i'm still a student and i said yah. so he continued to ask me wad sch i'm from and is it taking a levels this year.

then when i answer him he like just nod and yah yah yah like not even listening at all lah. then never mind. after asking this much he just sent me off with a work hard for a levels. kaoz. suppose to be i send him off can.

but then maybe he jus want to chit chat with me. coz after a long hard day at work then he want to like talk to some pretty girls or something. haiya. if like that then maybe cannot blame him. wahahahz.

haha, aiyah whatever lah hor. shall not dress so maturedly next time. 3 times lor! irritating.

anyway. herh. i want owen back in liverpool. tricia storms off.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

haha, i'm a good girl. been mugging hard. but still i don't think it's enough! still i'm not improving at the rate i want myself to be. ahz. so stress! haha, but then again it's highly unlike me to be so stress. so maybe i'm not.

haven't been blogging for a long time won't be doing so either. have many things i would like to say, but then now's like not really the time.

don't know how to phrase this. but, was just wondering if there's such a thing as accidently liking someone you don't mean too. or if the closer you are to someone, the more you know of that person, then sometimes it's just kinda irritating?

was just wondering if there's any truth in wad i said. can very good friends be irritating in some way or another too?

i don't know. sometimes i think this blog is kinda useless. wad's the point of blogging when you can't really say what you want to without hurting anyone else that's probably going to be reading this blog?

it's so hard trying to conceal wad you really wanna say. there's really alimit to one's privacy.

then what's the point of blogging, when you end up being questioned by people about whether this paragraph is about this person or that person and everything. sometimes i really wonder why. yet here i am doing the exact thing that i feel most displease at. wad an irony.

ahz. crap. i'm in between a good mood and a crappy mood. hmmm.. so hard to understand. nvm. shall go back to mugging again. shall blog about everything some other time.

and yes i won't forget the childish j2 canoeist who played such a trick on me. you all ah! watch it hor!! evil sia! not one of you helping me except for boon. but that's coz she also don't know! evil!

i feel so silly to be tricked! haha

tricia was here, she left.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

initially today was a damn funny day.. but then.. it just sort of gets worse! haha

today we were suppose to go for physics lecture. but then like our whole class didn't wanna go? coz it's the last one le. and we haven't really got all our stuff right. so we just stood outside the class there, while our cute physics rep, james!, tried fervently to persuade everyone to turn up. haiz.

he gave us a talk about how physics benefits each and every single part of our lives and how useful it is in the future, and even told us that physics is all around, in everything that we do and learn.

aahh. so! me and joan decided to give our own prep alk about how we should really just not go for physics coz everyone's not going and how we could further enhance this class spirit.

wah laoz. as james was standing at the edge of the group, me and joan sort of edge closer to him coz we wanted to pull him back into the crowd such that it will be too late to go physics lecture.

then, as we were like about to reach out to him, he just said that we should all for physics lecture and took off like the wind!!!

gosh. he actually ran! and we just stood there stun and shock before bursting out in laughter.

he ran all the way from the 4th floor toilets the area there to the door of the LT and we all just stood there stunned. kaoz. but i swear i've never seen him run so damn fast in my entire life sia~

even for p.e 2.4 we had to run with him to push him on. oh manz. so interesting.
haha, he's just so cute lah.

then after that, we got caught for not going for the stupid physics lecture. which we later went coz they say taking attendence mahz. actually i want to pon de, then half of the class who pon in the end, half of them went back.. so left me lucas weili and joan. ayez.

damn sway lah. like so many others never go and only we got caught. a few people i don't wanna name lah. but it's just so unfair sia! we first time pon the damn thing and we can't pon properly! argh!

don't know how the others get away with it.

yay! then later p.e we played games! but then not very fun ahz, coz the class guys all went to play soccer! except for a few.. whom do not have a very keen interest in sports whatsoever.

and ermz. that should be all about today lah. the interesting parts. and qisheng and joan don't believe me when i score correct for the mcq econs thingy. wad sia! haha, but qisheng going to ask teacher. if i'm correct he owes me a drink!

why do you still persist in doing so. every little thing that you do each time, the little conversations, the little bits here and there. all in all, it all adds up to the same thing.

each time you speak to me, each time i recieve your smses, it's always with a motive. it makes me wonder just how much our friendship means to you. each time it's always the same. you asking me how i'm doing before getting to wad is it you want exactly.
each time i give you an answer, you disregard me and what i have to say as if your job here is done.

whatever i send to you, i don't get it back. you always send the same thing to others. but what about me? wad i give, i don't recieve. no. not ever. not from you.

you're so cruel!

hmphz.

tricia has left le lah. confusing.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

ayez. today woke up late yesterday slept late. how?! cannot ready lah. keep sleeping. i will die sia. hmmz.

i must comment on something interesting! i think i passed through denzil's blog and i happen to see something interesting! in it he said that after like all the soccer stuff and everything then he never really exercise le then somehow his grades like not very good?

haha, then his teacher say maybe coz he didn't exercise then his body like sort of restless and everything so it's sort of a change that must be slowly adapted to?

haha, maybe it's the same for me! after competition i never really exercise le! then my econs mcq so sucky. then yesterday after playing badminton i did one 2000 mcq paper and i got 30! yeah! so so how?! you think related mahx?

aiyah. but then even if so it shouldn't be an excuse for me. hmm. i'm a sensible girl!

oh anyway! i want to say something! haha, yen ni and esther so childish! that day i saw yen ni, then i ask her to pass msg to esther! haha, i say tell esther her eyes very small. haiyo. then so unlucky. she tell le then me and joan go toilet then they also went!

then esther bully me! then i want to bluff esther say i ask yen ni to tell her her eyes very big, but don't know why yen ni say her eyes small. then yen ni in the toilet! shit. haha, coz i never see her come in. then i die le. yen ni come out then she tell esther say eh we work together to bully tricia! hmphz!

so, of course i ask joan to help me! coz esther take my rubber band! then joan say she will help me! coz esther run off le then joan say don't worry i run very fast! haha, then that silly esther stop and show her muscle to joan!

see lah. lose people in running then come and show muscle. then i following behind then yen ni come and tickle me! herh. so i take her hairband away!

haha, then we play until esther's class there. tsk tsk tsk. me and joan trying to stop them then they so childish. haiyo.

hmmz. think vs boys very united. and i also think we should support them. afterall we're talking about 129 years of tradition here. i mean if temasek were to convert to a single-sex school, i'm sure it would definitely cause some uproar among us.

wahz. and my auntie just bought herself an ipod mini. so ex! but it looks cool. haha, maybe we share! then she can use my zen? hahaz, but then the zen has like most of my songs in there. nahz. but still her ipod mini looks cool.

anyway, tricia is gone! see yaz.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

i like shaun and henrck tan!!! i think they damn cute~! hee.

don't know who they are? too bad. i'm not telling!

haha, oh no, i think i'm infatuated with them since i saw them at the linkin park concert! coz they very cute! and tall! and they were queueing up in front of me!

then after that i saw either one at plaza sing and a few other places before and they still look so cool!

hee.

okay! anyway today i went to play badminton! finally! after so long sia. and yes. ang hiang en you very evil hor! you need to make people run notz. wah laoz. if my leg not suan after running 6 rounds with joan they all yesterday i surely can serve back all your hits lah.

and then we shall see who is the one running.

haha, and that lim bey yan. aiyoz. run so much but then lost all the serves. still want to say she quite pro. haha, let her lah. anyway in our hearts we already know who's the pro one lah hor.

but yes, it was very fun and tiring!! haha! and energising!

actually at first i felt very lazy to run. but after i stone and slack there a while then my energy come back le!

then after playing me and bey went home change and went back school to study! hee. was quite productive.

okay lah. was glad for once to have listened to bey yan to go back school and study. for once. once = one and only time.

anyway. i was supposed to meet kaixiong. haiyo. yes. please don't ask me why i'm always supposed to meet him time and again. but that's coz we always end up not meeting each other.

but it's all his fault! i've never seen such a troublesome guy before. guess i have to arrange to meet up with him some other time. again.

yes, so now the whole world thinks that his my boyfriend.

but i'm sorry he's really not. but there are really girls who like him a lot. eeyer.

wah laoz. keith bully me!! he smack my head -piak!- so hard!

one more time ah.. and i'll punch you hor. oh and i must announce something!!

my econs mcq got 30 out of 40 for june paper 2000!! heehee. i'm so proud of myself.
i must ask miss quek to ask me how much i scored. then i will proudly announce!

oh and okay. since i'm so nice...

PUBLIC APPEAL:

TO ANYONE AND EVERYONE OUT THERE,
WHO HAS SEEN A RATHER OLD BUT STILL USABLE CALCULATOR,
WITH A TAZMANIAN DEVIL PLASTER AS A TRADEMARK, YOU KNOW THE ONE THAT SPINS FROM LOONEY TUNES, YEAH, THAT ONE, PLEASE PLEASE! RETURN IT TO THE OWNER LIM BEY YAN FROM 04S203. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. SHE'S FRANTICALLY SEARCHING FOR IT.
DON'T ALWAYS SEE HER SLEEP IN CLASS, ACTUALLY SHE QUITE WORRIED ABOUT HER LOST CALCULATOR. QUITE.

tricia is being helpful. and she leaves! goodbye!

Thursday, August 18, 2005

hmmm. today was a weird day. i went to do cip with lucas! like finally. and it's the last of cip i'll ever see or do again. damn mah fan lah. but then it was quite fun lah. haha, now i know every book has its place on the shelf. being a librarian is not easy at all.

but i'm very amazed by the amount of books one library can contain. it's like if you've never been inside the place where the librarians work you really wouldn't know. the variety there is like far and wide man. i bet i could probably stay there and read and read if i'm a librarian.

anyway after that me and lucas went out for dinner lah. and i guess when we left the school together, like got quite a few people thought we're together. that's so weird manz. yeah but anyway we're not lah. together that is.

haha, and just as i guessed, me xin yue mei yin and joan got stuck with the job of doing the teacher's day thingy. haiz. but then! this time! we outrightly rejected. haha, i'm not going to do it lor. have some backbone man tricia! yeah. so we're not doing it.

anyway today, the four of us were like 4 minutes late for miss quek's lesson? and we got slapped one full length essay. wah laoz. just when i said she was nice yesterday. but lucky the essay she ask us do only got part (a) which is like 15 marks? yay! so no need write so much. kaoz. full length essay sia.

anyway, it's nice to know that people are reading my blog and stuff, but really please do not ask me about the things i mentioned in here or anything. don't read so much into my words too. especially when they're said out of anger and fustrations. coz half the time i don't mean them.

and i really hate it when people ask me if what i say is this and this and what happen that and that. coz if i want to say why would i not directly use names and describe the full incident? maybe i should just get a diary huh. yupz. thanx.

i feel like playing badminton. maybe i will on fri with bey they all. i need a break. anyway i LOVE playing badminton! love it to bits. hee.

okay, now must go back to mugging. again. ayez.
hee.

tricia is gone! goodbye!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

tomorrow always seems to be a better day! it's true!
it always works for me! and today was really quite a good day.

hmmz.. firstly! we no need come for extra lessons or test in the morning! yay! coz it means more sleep for me! haha, and secondly! today's econ's rememdialw as cancelled coz no classroom to use! yay! aiyah. not that i'm happy.. but coz today is sort of a short day.

hmmz. but anyway. something not so good happened!

oh! it was early in the morning when i stepped into class! then after that i realised that our class rep was giving us lots of coloured paper. us as in the usual me joan mei yin and xin yue.

and i knew it lor! they wanted us to decorate the teacher's day card or thingy. every year also like that lor. although only got two years. but then last year me joan xin yue and mei yin really took a lot of time and effort to decorate the photo frame!

and the class usually find us to do this type of thing. just because we are usually the more active ones doesn't mean we have to do everything right? and the class only got us 4 girls? they damn coward lah. don't even dare to ask the other people to do. wad's wrong? i mean i don't mind doing it if everyone else contributes.

but any-oh-ways, i bet in the end surely we four do it.

then after lessons ended me joan and mei yin went to the library to supposedly study. but we ended copying some quotes and stuff coz they were very meaningful. haha, got influenced by me!

then we went for physics rememdial. haiz. and we were wondering why james even went. coz he got like a b grade?! and the remedial was like for O grade?! but then anyway he's in a league of his own. i bet nobody else got b, so he had to join the o. aiyoz. no choice de.

then after that we saw miss ang! and she gave us lollipop! yay! actually is we take form her one lah. but then she offer us mahx..

then we went canteen and i went up hall to find bey. then they were dancing the aces dance. haiya. actually i think it's quite nice. but nobody in my class like really wanna dance. only joan lah. coz she a bit mad one. haha. but then bey's batch of p.e people like damn enthu! like the whole hall just dance lor!
nobody shunned away or anything.

then after that went back to esther's class to study. then i went to consult ron for maths. and he and johnson ng keep saying me. hmphz. i will get my stats in order k!

then after that i was walking back to classroom.. and yisheng they all just finish playing soccer. so i walk behind them. haha! then they also going same destination as me! then yisheng saw me following them and he ask me why i follow them lor!

but we going same place wad! haha, quite funny lah. then go back class only can hear that keith koh singing non-stop. zhen yang also there! then both of them sing! aiyoz!

haha, and after that went home that time left only me bey and keith. then the security uncle come in and chat with us. very funny!

then after that me and bey go hide while keith talking ot his friends.
okay. and then i promised keith i won't tell anybody that i scared him. keith! don't worry k! i won't tell anybody i scared you! hee.

oh and i think miss quek is very nice! today while waiting for bey outside hall i saw her. then i wave! then she come over and chat with me. she ask me why i like lose my focus after competition. everyday like keep stoning like that. haiz. i also wish i knew either. i also think i'm losing my focus. the momentum ain't there either. how sia! but she encouraged me! haha, so nice manz!

okay. enough blogging! i'm going. tricia is gone! she has spoken and she has left!

so.. i think.. i shall forgive her for slapping me all the full-length essays.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

i'm damn irritated today lah. won't mention names or anything about it. but yes. i'm irritated and disgusted. argh.

it's so hard to blog when trying to be discrete. it's so hard not to mention anyone's name or wad happen as there are people reading. this brings me back to wad a blog really is for. it's so hard when you want to mention this particular thing or just bitch about that person and this person just to get things off your chest. it's so hard to do when it spoils the friendship.

coz. someone is bound to read this stupid blog.

and someone is bound to rat.

and that someone passes it on to the other someone who swears not to tell, yet half the world will end up knowing it anyway.

okay. enough of my ranting. and please do not ask me wad i'm talking about. if i wanted to let you know, i would have mentioned it. yes. names and everything. but too bad. anyway not i want to scold or bitch about this person or anything. i just feel damn irritated lah. and everything above i said is based on today's mood, which will definitely not be tmr's mood. unless i get irritated again.

today was a very hot day! and humid! and i fell asleep for gp. last five minutes only! and gp was 2 periods k. and i pon p.e? haha, they really should le us play games lah. it's so boring. and unhealthy. i want to play badminton!

and i stayed back in school to study. was studying at bey's class where it was more peaceful and quiet. and i expected only me bey joan meiyin johnson and keith to come study. haha, coz usually joan and mei yin would have left and leave me bey johnson and keith alone to study. oh well. today's quite a crowd.

and i got some sensible advice from someone today. hmm. will remember that. anyway!!!

johnson's dancing n'sync it's gotta be me!! i'm so happy! i very long never see them dance le!

haha, but still, i wished it was the original group which included johnson kaixiong eugene and sherron! i must tell kaixiong about it! haha

yay!

okie dokie. i need to go. and everyone says i'm not cute. okay lor. not cute lor. just pretty can? haha, kidding!

tricia has to go. goodbye!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

yesterday was mei yin's birthday! haha, happy birthday!
we went to k-box to celebrate her birthday! cool! we sang for about 5 hours and lucas was very funny! haha, it was really a fun day.

then after that i went to tm to meet keith and he was with faeez. hmmz. they were looking for don't know who's present. so many people birthday. then we went home. i was sort of supposed to meet kaixiong lah, but he didn't finish his project. so i waited a while before going home.

haiya anyway, today we had a maths mock paper early in the morning. which i didn't study for. and i didn't even feel like doing. 3 hours so long sia~! and i was very hungry. then me and lucas suppose to do some cip, but then we couldn't do it again coz of something lah. lazy to say. so we went to tm and century square to walk walk. then i came hme. wanted to go out and study.. but then once i'm home i'm just so lazy! feel like sleeping. that's about it i guess.

tricia signing off!

and i just read other people's blog like mainly bey yan's and esther's. and i realised that they all don't like me to be cute.

Friday, August 12, 2005

today was a nice day! i went out with joan xin yue and meiyin! haha, the reason being we needed to buy mei yin's birthday present!! haha, it's a bit weird to bring along the brithday person itself.. but then we needed her to choose the thing she like if not scared buy wrong. in the end she cannot make up her mind lah! so we told her to go home and think while we tmr go out celebrate with her. then after that we went to take neoprint!!!!

haha, i think the neoprint very nice! very fun! haha! so happy!! and then me and joan were late to meet keith ah.. haha, but then lucky at the library here got sihui and den.. so i hope he wasn't too mad! actually i wanted to go back school to study de.. then i don't know until wad time we gonna shop so decided to study at tampines library with joan. then keith ask us if we studying not so we all arranged ot meet at library. but then joan tired. so she went home. aiyoz.

so me and keith go study at bk.. then faeez also came.

hmmz.. oh yah! today p.e do the aces day dance. quite fun ahz. but everyone else was like so unwilling to dance along.. then after that got maths lecture!
i walk the same staircase with yisheng and keith they all. then that yisheng suan me with something stupid i had said when we were playing pool the other day. shit. but it was really accident wad. haha, make me look like an idiot only. then keith go wrong entrance at the maths lecture there! haha!

oh but yay! tmr we going k box to celebrate mei yin's birthday! i'm going to use my nice nice voice to sing her a birthday song!!! mei yin is so fortunate!

hee. that's for now. tricia was here, and she left!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

ermz.. happy belated birthday singapore?

yesterday i went kovan area to study with joan! and keith! then later faeez came. haha, it;s not really weird that i went down to kovan coz since it's the holidays and joan like always come down tampines area to study, so i figured out that it was only right of me to go down now. so nice of me!

haha, okay lah, it was nice to study together coz we never study for so long le. as in me and joan. last year we always study together de! hmmz.. then after that keith they all want play pool. so i say i want! coz i very long never play pool le. then in the end me yisheng keith and faeez went ahead to play coz joan had something on. heehee. and i realised that my pool skills still not bad!

we played 3 games then me and faeez one team. then yisheng and keith lose all three times! haha, but then they really more accurate and better than us, just that they hit so hard then the white ball go in after the black ball..
haha, and that silly yisheng haven't hit the black ball in then tell me good game le. in the end also let me win. aiyoz. but very funny lah.

then after that i took 27 and the journey home damn long sia. coz of the ndp thingy. jam up the roads! oh, but i must agree with esther that guys in uniform really look smart and handsome. coz while i was in the jam, can see army soldiers moving about. and they look their smartest with the uniform plus the cap!! i think add on the cap really make them look damn handsome.

then today suppose to go k-box with xin yue joan and mei yin.. but due to unforeseen circumstances we didn't go and i went kovan to study with joan and keith again. then keith also ask faeez along so we all study together. haiya. but i wanted to go k-box! but then in the end only can sing along with my mp3 for joan and keith they all. but i bet they enjoyed it nevertheless.

and tmr is school day again. so sianz. okay lah. then i go ready~! tricia says goodbye!

oh yah, and poor j1 canoeist. i think catfish not very good ah. don't go training on saturdays want to win wad shit. one week sea training once is comfirm not enough can. aiyoz. then you all must jia you for land training k.

tricia is happy. she has left!

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

today is national day eve. so i shall use the colour red! speaking of red! today! nobody in my class really wore red or white. they so unsporting! no national day spirit! haha, but nvm! i shall forgive them!

and we suppose to have canoeing photo taking after the concert.. but then some of the canoeist have chem lecture and bio test. poor thing sia~ so in he end nobody went for photo taking. or rather it was cancelled lah. so little people. don't know want to take wad also. but the j1s very enthu sia. they change into jersey le then kena told that it was cancelled. aiyoz.

anyway the concert today was not bad. haha, it amused me and i guess i sort of had fun. then after the concert.. aiyoz.

after the concert, joan went out with her friend, xin yue went out with her friends, mei yin don't know go where. and that leaves me with nobody and nowhere to go! haha, but i guess it was okay lah.. coz i didn't exactly ask them out either and partly coz i also didn't feel like going out too. so i went home. and guess wad! i went out to study.

i wanted to study at some fas food restuarant, but then all the schools were like let off early? and it was damn crowded noisy and squeezy. and i bet if i even took out so much as my pencil case, the manager surely tell me not to study. so i walked around aimlessly for a while coz everywhere was so damn pack!

then i went to bk to eat. hmmz. then after that i noticed that the it was only.. 12.30! still so early lah. so i contemplated going home to study. like so lame lah. go out then go home. so i decided to go s-11 there the popular coz i needed to buy some stuff.

so when i reached there, i realised that i'm really like damn outdated or something lah. coz popular there close down le. wah laoz. haha, but nvm! as i was coming down the escalator.. i saw.. i saw.. i saw a comic shop!!!!!
whee! so big somemore! and the lady boss there looked nice! so i decided to take a look. haha, i so long never read comics le! just waiting to find the perfect comic shop.

and thus, i walked out of the shop later, a certified comic shop member. coz i don;t know the shop name. but membership is only 5 bucks a year? hmmz.. but i bet i won't really have the time to go borrow books there. so i also don't know wad i have done. but nvm! the membership card is nice!

i still rmb last time there was this comic shop called comix hut at my house there. then i signed up for membership for like 12 bucks a year?
then one day they suddenly close down!! and don't know go where lah. damn dumb sia. and they never inform me. felt so cheated.

oh okay. don't digress. so after i became a full-fledged member of the shop, i decided to go library to try my luck. i thought it would be opened for like only half day coz eve of national day.. but then! it was opened till 9.. so i was there from like 1 to 7? so long hor. but then i think afternoon i really cannot study lor. i kept nodding off sia.
but any-oh-hows, i did some work. and i also realised that being at the library on the eve of some major event is really conducive! coz there's not really a lot of people! lucky me!

haiya, and kaixiong still owes me my liverpool band. i have to meet up with him somehow to get it. he always say i can get it back anytime i want. but he is the one that's always not free! that pig. haha, and i told him chelsea will win and he got kinda angry coz he's rooting for arsenal. oh well. the best is still liverpool!!! yay!

oh yah, that day kaisheng told me that at anfield, which is liverpool's homeground, the field itself is scattered with the ashes of former liverpool players who has died. so nice sia. then he said that it's sort of a tradition coz when they players play on the field, they're playing upon the shoulders of great men before them. it's so nice! it's not even scary.. it just heightens the sentimental values of anfield.

okay.. so now i have said enough.. i'm going back to read my storybook! it's so exciting!
tricia is here! oh, coz i forgot to mention that i met faeez at the library! that guy. haha, okay, i'm going. going. going. gone! byeee!

Monday, August 08, 2005

i went for the christian festival of praise yesterday.
it's kinda weird that i'm a freethinker, yet i wear the buddhist bracelet and go for christian concert gigs. well, they're not exactly gigs but just christians songs which i happen to like.

anyway, it was really an eye-opener coz it was a fairly large scale event. it was on a larger scale than wad i had seen in downtown east for the planetshakers gig. i was amazed at how many christians we had in singapore. but still, keith told me that buddhist still had the largest number of followers? haha, weird.

i went to study with joan at the airport before going to meet keith they all at kallang station. in the end only me keith yisheng mavis and joan met. and we literally walked to the indoor stadium. haha, not bad lah. was quite a short distance. but walking at kallang there brings back memories of our canoeing days.

and even though we were like about, 3 4 hours early? there was this long line of people queueing up le! it made me think about how i went about 5 hours early for the linkin park concert too! haha!

then down there we join kaisheng, kahlisah, boon rui, zheng yang.. yupz. the rest i don't really know. haha, and i saw like sherron carol and estella. which surprisingly, they all recognised me! haha, i mean for sherron and carol it's not surprising or wad.. but estella waved at me?

hmmz.. the concert was fun! i enjoyed myself! the songs were nice and to my liking as usual. it's weird that, i like the songs a lot, yet to me, the lyrics and the meaning that the songs hold means nothing to me? they may be songs of worship or praise for the lord, but i have no lord, no religion, and i'm no believer. haha, and for this, i'm glad that joan and keith understands this fact and never have they once forced me to go for any of the concerts nor to so fervently convert me to a christian like others who would just pop out of nowhere on the streets and ask you to come for this and that.

haha, i guess joan and keith encourages me to go with no obligations whatsoever and they respect my decision at being neutral on religious stuff. thank you!

the concert really brought back memories of the linkin park concert where i jumped and sang along.. except that at the festival of praise, i jumped, but couldn't really bring myself to sing the songs. i guess it's a kind of principle thingy, where i told myself that if i'm not a christian, i can only enjoy the songs but not sing along. coz by singing along, it would not only mean that i'm praising the lord himself, but to me it will be like committing myself towards the first step of christianity.

yet, i'm grappling with another logical reasoning that since i've already taken the first step to go, i shouldn't deny myself the joy of singing along and jumping. haiz. so many decisions, so many choices. in the end, i decided to sing along for certain songs that i thought the lyrics to be fairly okay. haha, weird me huh. but i guess i have to follow the principles i have set for myself in life. coz they're what i believe in.

yupz. and i made new friends like boon rui and zhen yang.. and got to know kaisheng and kahlisah better. hee. and we all went for dinner after that. it's so weird huh. haha, but nevertheless i really had fun. thanx!

yupz.. actually bey asked me to go watch fireworks tmr? but then it starts at 12 midnight! that's fairly late. and yeahz. my mummy was not very happy with the idea and told me not to go. sorry bey! but anyway i was planned on using the holidays to mug. i have to push myself and work really hard now.

speaking of going out.. i just realised that the canoeist have not gone out for a long time. haha, we used to eat lunch every saturday, but now all these have changed. it's weird. they've been part of my life for so long and yet now everything changes. instead i see the j1s taking over, and bonding like we did! haha, so i'm happy for them!

it's been a really long entry.. but i guess i need to get my thoughts down. but anyway, it's my blog right? so i uess i'm free to write anything no matter how long nor short?

i read the newspapers, and they compared blogging to keeping a diary. haha, i guess keeping a diary entitles you with more privacy? afterall, that's wad a diary is for isn't it? but blogging takes away all that. unless of course you've kept your blog add a secret. but blogging means to keep an online diary. and a diary is suppose to be private. so, there's something wrong right?

aiyah! i don't know! so many questions so little answers. haha, i need to not think but study. but then i have so much stuff on my mind. i guess i should go listen to linkin park now. i can always count on them no matter if i'm happy or sad. hee.

and tricia goes off! she's listening to her linkin park!

i wanna run away,
never say goodbye.
i wanna know the truth,
instead of wondering why.

i wanna know the answers,
no more lies.
i wanna shut the door,
and open up my mind.

Saturday, August 06, 2005

hey!
i don't understand.. i can't believe i fail my econs mcqs!! =( shit. always i get lowest in class. how?! my score for econs mcq have been steadily declining. i also don't know why. argh. feel like giving up. maybe i hould have taken chem physics combi? haha, but then again i don't look back on the things that i've not done. so... i guess i have to work really really hard for econs.

and.. i failed the bloody maths test. i got 19 only! okay so maybe i didn't study. and maybe my stats suck. and maybe i was just sick that day. but i guess that's not really an excuse huh. hmphz. i guess the only thing good i've done this week is completing all my work on time and asking questions during physics. i guess only my physics and maths are in full swing mode. i need to buck up on my physics man. mugger mugger tricia!

i don't want to be mugger. but i guess i don't have a choice.

anyway, tmr going out.. sunday going study. monday don't know do wad shit. tuesday holiday. wednesday holiday. both days go mug. thursday go school fri go sch.

anyway, after so long. i think the nkf charity ceo, mr tt durai? whatever his name was lah. i think. he's innocent. i just saw one page on 8 days that slanders him. i think they're so critical. i guess although i don't really know the truth to everything, but then my gut feeling tells me he's innocent. just like how my gut feling tells me michael jackson should be put in child for child molestation. and if i don't even trust my own gut feeling, how can i even trust myself?
aiyah. i don't know wad i'm talking. doesn't really makes sense. but as long as i know wad i'm talking can le. oh what the hell.

oh!!! oh! i went to collect my retainers today!! whee! i think they're real cool! it's transparent! and it's like dentures! it's like the perfect mould of my teeth or something! it's not like the retainers that weiqiang wears! i think it's cool. hee. but then i'm not used to it. speak also speak funnily. but better than not being able to talk at all.

amd i just reformat my com again. =S

hmmz. okay. tricia must jia you! tricia was here, and she left!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

i'm so happy!!! i chat with zir zir on the phone this morning!!! yay! hahaha! so long since we last talk! and he sounded so much nicer on the phone to me than in person!! dumb zirzir. i knew it! he still loves meeeee! heehee.

oh coz his birthday yesterday and i don't have his number. and stupid stubborn him didn't want to ask me for mine. and he didn't wanna give me his. so i took the number from kohji-san. yay! and we chatted! haha, and i said happy birthday lah. and he said thanx. hee. and i told him i took out my braces! and we chat! hahaha! yay!!

happy happy happy happy. it's been ages since i last saw him! and we didn't even chat. he always make fun of me. can't even speak properly to him. but i'm glad he's doing alright. alrightz. gtg!

tricia is a happy girl! she left smiling!

Monday, August 01, 2005

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Our dying day
Of our dying!!!

tricia in, tricia out..