it wasn't meant to an entry for complaining. but along the way things change.
sometimes you put in so much effort for some stuff, but nothing comes out of it. and people complain. then you wonder wad's the point of doing all these anyway.
sometimes you just ask a casual question, but just somehow that question happens to irritate someone. for me the feeling now is like, there's noone in the world who can truly understand you now except for yourself.
the closer you are to someone, the harder it is to tell them that hey, you're wrong. you're making a mistake. or to even ask them to reflect back on themselves.
so wad if you have a religion? does it teach you certain moral values. some people can go on and on about how good their religion is and how it has help them and blah blah blah. so wad? it's not everything. somethings you just have to learn it the hard way.
actually. i don't even know why i'm complaining. i just felt a need to.
haiya. this is stupid. i feel so restricted to not be able to say stuff i wanna say.
okay take that.
person A. stupid retarded idiot. sometimes i don't understand you. at all times you may seem so high up there and seemingly intellectual. but after this i've come to this conclusion that, in more ways than some, you're just childish too.
person B. can't say much since i don't know you well. but i guess you should be smart to know good things don't come easily. can't help but think that you're kinda materialistic.
person C. so many things i want to point out. so many times i wanna tell you, hey, look, spare a thought for others. yet for so many times, i can't.
person D. idiot.
there's only so much one can take.
aiyahz. forget it. after saying so much. my tolerance level for them has come down to zero again. anyway who doesn't have flaws.
aiyahz but i'm also sad! hahaha
just thinking of the people i won't get to see. thinking of the people i miss. thinking of the stuff i'll miss and i missed. everything just adds up. stupid huh.
person E. i'll miss seeing you around. that's for sure. nothing much to look forward to is there.
person F. an extremely immature child that i'll always miss.
person G. haha, you're damn busy lah. can't even have a nice chat with you. know ya feelings. but makes it even more awkward for me i guess.
haha, to everyone. can don't need waste your effort guessing who's who. for me to know for you to find out. can't find out? then too bad ahz. can't say anyway. this is stupid ya.
not blogging ready. ciaoz.
posted by tricia, me and i at
12:07 AM
