Wednesday, August 30, 2006

hurted.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

my day wasn't suppose to end up being so bad. but it did. and it sucks.

i can't help feeling so bad-tempered and moody. and i'm sorry i'm like that. it just pisses everyone around me. it makes me feel bad coz i didn't mean to throw my temper at anyone.

everything seems wrong when you're in a bad mood. even right becomes wrong. i'm irritated at the suggestions people give. i'm irritated by the iedas they give. i feel damn uncomfortable coz something's weighing on me.

i don't understand why people can't get their piorities right. wad's so hard about doing something that you're suppose to do and not give any excuses about it. you have to see for yourself wad's deem as important and wad's not. the higher piority stuff that took precedent wasn't such a great excuse afterall ya. it probably could have been done earlier.

it's just unfair to others when they have put in much time and effort in place of yours.

i can't imagine my world without my mummy. i guess it's harder for someone who has just lost theirs. be strong. i hope i won't break down if i see you feeling damn sad and lost =S

things are piling up. i want to say i can't cope. i want to say i wanna quit. i wanna say i give up. but i can't and i won't. if others can do it. so can i. it's just taking a toll on me. it's a trying period. i hate trying periods.

i hate my day turning bad.
i hate the feeling i have that the rest of the week won't turn out to be good.
wad do i want now? i don't know.

arghz. this post sucks. no comments please.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

to work or not to work? if i go work, means i'll be working fri sat and sun. shucks. no beauty sleep. sleep is very important. geez. and fri frank's asking usout for dinner to celebrate mr oh's birthday. i wanna go. but i guess i'll be like quite tired. sian diao.

then sat we might be going for some farewell party for liling. yeah she's leaving for some imperial college of london. same as chong. chong's leaving soon too. =(
hope he comes back soon.

okay. i'm not hard up for money. but extra cash comes in useful. how how how?

maybe i should ask someone to play scissors paper stone with me.

alright. today has been a not so good but okay day. crappy right.

haha, anyway, tricia jia you! jiaqing!

if you are reading this. jia you k. if you need anything, you know the whole team will always be here for you. =D

goodnight tricia =)

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

these few days in hall have been a mixed feeling for me. i'm enjoying hall life actually. coz the freedom's really a lot more than wad i have at home. but i can't deny that my parents have really gave in to me a lot.

i like working late nights. it's peaceful, silent and soothing.. something that my papa won't understand coz he's forever chasing me to bed. but it's such an irony that he actually asks if i wanna watch some 3 am soccer match with him all the time. haha

but then sometimes you can feel really left out, coz.. you have to know where your restrictions are. guilt and confusion are just but two of the emotions i feel from time to time. i guess it's normal. with tutorials that i'm trying to understand plus living the hall life with the best people i could have ever asked for. i guess at certain periods in your life, you have to get used to doing stuff alone. loneliness is not to be feared. to me doing stuff alone gives me an independent feeling in a positive way =)

when things don't go the way you want them to i guess we shouldn't feel more or less disappointed. there's always a reason for the way things happen. but sometimes it's just not fair! hmphz. i don't like i don't like i don't like i don't like. =(

things go awry when you want them to be fine. the worse is when you expected it to happen and it really happened. i really thought i could be wrong, but i turned out to be so right. but since i expected it. it's fine. really. haha..

wad you deem important, might not be the way others see them. alright. that's it then. why do i even bother sometimes. haha, oh well.

don't wanna blog ready. tricia is the best! night~

Friday, August 18, 2006

haven't been updatng for a long time. hall has really lots of activities going on. but they're not reallythe indecent kind of late night activities that people think. they're hall suppers, birthday celebrations, movies.. blah blah blah. haha, and yes block rep. which my dear roomie got choosen for.

anyway staying in hostel i realise really requires lots of proper time management and self-control. haha, i guess if i'm not so lazy, i would have actually be bothered to get up early in the morning to revise my work.

on top of that i'm still going back to work. coz the bloody textbooks in uni are so damn ex lah. whoever said education was cheap sia. so ironic that the government wants to make everyone educated but yet makes education so expensive.

i guess some of us have to learn how to tame down a little and focus on more important stuff. but that doesn't mean you shouldn't have fun. aftreall it's only the first sem. you have to sort of like work things out to see how they go before you can actually make proper and right changes, i realised too that other halls aren't really as noisy or fun-loving as my hall. this is the hall for me. hahaha, i guess for others who think that we only love going out for suppers and stuff that's not really very right. afterall it's only once in a lifetime experience.

anyway enough about hall life.

school work is piling up. haha, i'm trying to adapt. yay. jia you tricia. nightz!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

ta-dah! that's my block people. we're all staying in hall 10. or hall X. some of them are seniors though. haha, but i bet you can't tell the difference anyway.

hall camp first. it's fun fun and fun all the way. my advice to those going to stay in hostel to go for the hall camp. it's not childish like secondary school or jc. it's interesting and exciting. the seniors are really nice too. they make you feel like there's no senior-freshie gap between you and them. haha, that's how i've always wanted things to be when i was a senior facilitating orientation camps myself.

first day of school was fine. i sort of lost my hostel key coz i left it in the toilet. lucky my neighbour found it. thanx sylvia! careless me sia. if i let momsie know she'll kill me like anything. but it had me panicky there for a while. and i had to go library to print my notes.

shir say when i wake up call her then we go bathe and have lunch together. in the end coz i had to print notes so i went library first then supposedly have to meet her later. haha, but in the end i got pang-sehed! she and my neighbour yvonne went to eat lunch le when i called. it's okay. i'm independent.

actually i was quite proud of myself lah. coz i went to the library all by myself. i took the shuttle bus all the way to north spine, found the library, figured out how to print the notes and found my own lecture theatre. then i managed to find my way back too. ha! i also know how to top up cashcard by myself =)

i guess it's not bad for someone who has such lousy sense of direction.

in life somehow there'll be like people irritating you. i guess i met one of them. trying not to form an opinion before i know him. but it's hard when everyone's talking about it. it's hard when i really feel that it's irritating. i feel bad coz i'm kinda mean to him, and to think that i told low xuan once that we shouldn't judge a person by wad others say. coz no matter how bad a person is, if him/her still has friends around them, him/her can't be that bad really. that's wad i said and that's wad i still believe in. but i still can't make up my mind.

i feel it's one of the not so good phases in my life now. i hope it'll pass quickly. it's a sucky feeling.

i'm tired. night~ =S ah. no comments please.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

hall camp just ended. uni life is starting. it's kinda funny and enriching actually. haha, can see that esther has really enjoyed herself at hall camp. of course i did too. new friends, fun, games... etc.

anyway more about hall camp some other post. it's too long to talk about.

i guess moving in to hostel and to the uni is kinda fun. but somehow i feel that while looking forward to this new life, i'm sort of abandoning my old life. it's really kind of a sucky feeling. coz certain things you can't look back and say that i should have done this or that when now nothing you say or do now will help.

i feel my old life slipping away from me slowly but surely. and the worse thing is i can do nuts about it.
haha, actually i'm saying all these coz i didn't get to go out with low xuan they all due to hall camp. and because the other time i was supposed to go back mj with them too but i didn't turn up. well. i guess, there'll be other chances.

but just somehow and somewhere i feel that it's wrong, but i can't exactly pinpoint wherever the hell that is wrong.

probably i'm just jealous that they can go out together but i can't. but then again orientation was fun.

haha, i can't make up my mind how i'm feeling.

but i really wanted to go out with them though.

ahh. messed up messed up. darn.

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