Sunday, December 17, 2006
today was inter hall games.
i guess me and roomie didn't do too well. don't know. seems like every sport i join i also don't do well huh. canoeing too. but it's okay. i tried? though today's badminton could have been better.
it's okay then. thursday still have! play to win!
sometimes i feel that my life in uni is pretty screwed up. i realise i don't really like having two homes and my stuff in two places. it's kinda confusing where's everything and on top of that i keep forgetting if i brought this and that along. but to ask me to travel from home to ntu, i'll say it's a total waste of my time. i don't know how mei yin does it, but she's good. she can cope. she can manage. maybe i'm spoilt maybe i'm not.
sure. home's surely the best. i agree. but it's not that i don't want to stay home. it's the mah fan part that over rules the going home part. anyway, there's usually nobody at home. go home and slack? might as well i slack in hall? i don't know. sometimes i just wish i were home. sometimes not.
yeah. sometimes go home also get nagged at? mummys' like really good at that lah. i just wish she would learn to trust me and my decisions more. come on. it's not like every single decision and every single step i take is wrong. having lived on earth for wad.. close to 20 years? would i not know wad to do and wad not to do? give me a chance.
i know she's just worried. afraid that i'm just too soft-hearted. maybe i am and always will be. but i want to trust my own judgment and decisions. i may not always be right, but i am not always wrong.
this is stupid. some self-reflect session?
i read someone's blog just now. i think certain posts are just so damn interesting. it's the kind that actually gets you thinking.
i don't know. sometimes i just wish for someone to hold a decent conversation with me? we could talk it out and not argue about certain topics? i need to speak my views and i would like to hear yours. well... i guess i cannot do it if you choose to walk away huh. but it's okay. i know i'm pretty assertive about my views. and it's not easy to out speak me when i feel strongly.
i guess... chong's one of the few that could ever make me pause stop and re-think whatever it is i said. but it doesn't mean he's always right either. and i accept the fact that i can be wrong. haha, i guess i'm just weird. needing people to talk and discuss about dumb topics. well well well.
tricia tricia tricia. life's pretty screwed up huh.
and i probably know why i don't mind going back to work. coz so far, it's probably the thing that i do best. it's something familiar, not something foreign.
i believe this is only a stupid passing phase. it had better be on its way then. i cannot and i will not keep feeling this way.
i'm sorry i always seem so busy. to huiqing, to joan and the rest, to the canoeing girls.. etc etc i just cannot seem to find enough time huh. always giving last minute comfirmations and stuff. sorry! actually i'm really not busy.. just a clash of timings always.
ha.. when can i ever find time to find myself then? i need myself back!
suddenly the world seems so big... and me? so tiny.
tricia came. she left. she might have disappeared.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
dear blog. i'm sorry you were being neglected. i swear i promised to update you since it's the holidays now. but i've just been too busy.
yes. same excuse all over again.
sometimes i'm just so lazy to update you anyway. i'm sorry!
anyway today is a good date and day. don't ask me why. but it just is.
and my mei mei is working at downtown east, if you have the time to waste or the time to spare, you all could go visit her.
pathetic pay and a not so nice boss there. but it's your job so work hard! just don't forget it's your holidays. go out and enjoy yourself.
anyway been working my ass off since holidays started. okay. not to say that i didn't enjoy going back to work. but there's so many customers each day! and i've not adjusted back to the full swing of the working adult life. haha tiring at times but.. thank goodness i have esther ng yen yong. work doesn't seem so dreadful with you around!
i tell you the parents and the kids these days are really attitude-able. parents asking about the driving packages right to every last detail when they're not the ones learning!?
frankly speaking it's really impossible to absorb every single thing that's being said upon registration. so let your own kid learn and ask. i mean once you start going for the lessons you surely will be familiar with the procedure??
and it's really funny if you can't make your own decisions. most of the time i'm talking to the kid but the parents make the decisions for them. oh wells.
and anyway!! yesterday 09.12.2006 was my dear colleague's wedding and her birthday! congrats to you evon!
i think she looked really radiant that night. and her wedding photos were damn cool lah. it's seriously damn nice! felt quite envious of her! but the photos were really well taken. service at the restaurant sucks. i told 3 different waiters and waitresses to fill up my glass and none did! idiotic.
shit. i will not forget that i have to register my subjects on 12.12.2006. it's really really important. =D
alright. i don't know wad else that i wanna blog but, thank you chong as always. haha and all the best to your exams there.
tricia came and left.
