Sunday, August 31, 2008
Rainy days are so sucky. I don't really like rainy days. Sunny days are better. I guess i prefer the sun more than rain. And I guess that explains why the only flower I could have ever liked is the Sunflower.
I thought I was nice by helping. woke up early. took the bus. got a seat. nevertheless something went wrong along the way.
made a call and heard something not so pleasant. and it made me wonder if i were to say the same unpleasant thing to you, would the reaction be the same? i guess not. things will only get worse.
There are certain stuff that i really don't feel like keeping to myself. yet putting it on the blog might serve to cause more misunderstandings. boo. i don't want to make it seem that it's unfair that i have an avenue of venting my fustrations and letting you know but you don't. forget it then. i won't say a thing here.
sigh. rainy days just suck.
maybe it's time to stop thinking of others but for yourself tricia.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Hello people! it's me again. Amazing isn't it. how i'm bloggin more nowadays.
Well BIG BIG NEWS. i pass i pass i pass!!
damn if i wasn't nervous at all. it's super exciting just balloting out the test routes that i thought i could almost pee in my pants! well shorts really. then getting in the car with the tester was absolutely nerve-wrecking!!!!
I have to admit my legs were shaking and my heart was thumping damn loud.
I screwed up my first parallel parking though. But after that i pretty much calmed down and tried it the second time. And thereafter, everything went perfectly well.
And i passed at 10 points!!!! whee. super duper happy.
of course shirley and my sister didnt believe i passed. everybody thought i wore a mini skirt to take the test.
hello! wad century is this?! mini skirts aren't in fashion anymore dears.
anyway i'm super duper happy!!!!
oh no. my poor roomie. she sees me reading a book all the time and thinks i'm damn free. well actually i'm not. the storyline was simply too enthralling for me to put down. the more i read the more guilty i am for not doing my work... and well.. seeing you so hardworking for once.
i guess it makes a hell lot of difference now that leon's not here. I do try not to be too close to terence coz i know you wish leon were by your side. but endure!!!! terence went to china for a month and i survived without him.
just think of it as you spending 19 years of your life without leon. so you can do it again too. at least that's wad i think. well i mean. girls can stand up independently by themselves you know. and i always think i'm on an equal footing with the guys, sometimes even better. heh.
anyway the start of a new term. many familiar and unfamiliar faces. boo. lots of hoo haa even before term starts.. and.. it's sometimes quite a drag when you can't tell your friend that he/she is in the wrong without hurting that person. Sometimes you think why does that person keep holding on to that anger and grudge inside of him/her? it's weird you know. holding on to something that makes you feel real miserable.
isn't it easier to let go?
i guess humans are very very selfish creatures. what they cannot get they bear a grudge against. though i don't know wad makes them so selfish about that but yah. selfish humans. that's wad we all are.
actually i always think that the best way to handle a problem especially one involving friendship, is to live and let live after everyone has understood each other. there's no point in dragging it on and thinking why did he/she change and wad it used to be like. basically it's coz we can't let it go.
of course typing it here is definitely much easier than doing it.
right. so i guess i'm pretty much done around here. would love to go back to work soon and get the money rolling in. i'm in need of money. i would like to earn more money now..... for the future?
i know wad i want. so i'm going to get it.
and passing the driving test? it did inch my confidence up that bit of level. i still am the girl i know myself to be. maybe i am finding back myself. i love it. smiles. haha.
tricia, you might be back!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
hello!
I'm back after a seemingly long loooooong break.
It's kinda good to be back. Something refreshing to start a post with.
I know I've neglected blogging about my 21st birthday, my shanghai trip, my attachment and of course the recent FOC camp 08/09.
But where to start? too many things to blog.
Anyway, just a late thanx to all who came for my 21st party! Thank you! Love your presence and your PRESENTS! (presents more)
My Shanghai trip was memorable! Haha, I really enjoyed myself and I'm glad we went with the people we went with. of course except for 2 people that I do not wish to mention.
Speaking of which. I have never believed that I can dislike a person so much that I really cannot bear to speak or be in near proximity of that person, but i have. I really have someone I totally abhor.
tricia tricia. You don't use to be like that.
Maybe the harsh realities of the real world are catching up with me.
I don't even know how to characterise myself now. What am I? Kind, caring and nice?
maybe not so nice afterall.
Sometimes I wonder What kind of a girl I am turning out to be. I don't feel so motivated nor energetic as before. It seems as if I've tamed down a lot. No longer soaring nor flying. I feel like I have my wings clipped. tight. I no longer feel as optimistic or as happy as I've used to be.
why? I'm also pretty unsure of that myself. Is it true that as you grow up surviving in that awful ratrace you start to lose yourself? I feel so direction-less now. I don't feel very happy too. but I don't feel sad either. Sigh.
But on the other hand. I am happy to see jiaqing and the rest of the guys start their uni lives. It is a brand new start for them and they are enjoying what I used to enjoy back in my Year 1 days before the exams i mean.
I feel really excited for them.
Well guys, don't forget us girls ya.
And even though I am not a frequent blogger. I do blog. Just that I feel lazy to log in and blog.
And a blog isn't really very personal if people keep quoting what you have written in it. It seems to me like they are using my weaknesses listed out in my blog to make a personal attack on me. If you know what I mean. Or perhaps I am just being over sensitive.
Aiyah. Actually you know wad. I just hate the current me. I feel like I've become so draggy and emo. Am i????
Is this a phase everyone has to go through in life? Where they find themselves direction-less and helpless? It's a stupid phase in life though. boo.
And to my dearest Lim Mei yin. Happy birthday lah you. hahaha.
Glad to have you xin yue and low xuan with me through those JC days.
You have always withstanded our bullying simply by being you.
Love you lah. yucks. Hope you had a wonderful time at MINDS today.
The start of a new sem. everybody shout! *WHOO HOO!
yeah right.
Tricia has blogged. She's off now. Till next time then. ta~