I may have erred in some or many of the decisions i made. but i don't regret them.
looking back on this date at this time, has in fact made me a tad prouder of myself.
wad do i pride myself on?
i pride myself on the stubborness of me. i pride myself of what i have achieved. i pride myself on not giving up and pulling through. i pride myself of who and what i have moulded myself to be and have become. i pride myself that i was able to experience what i was able to experience, that sense of determination, that sense of nothingness, the depressing times, and the grit it through all and pull through it times that i had for myself.
looking back i tell myself i am confident of what i have managed to achieve albeit not much, but a small motivation for what lies further, a small stepping stone to walk a further distance, as what joan and me would used to say =)
i pride myself on the many little things of myself.
but this pride will not ride over me. it will instead serve as a reminder to the better that i might have achieved, to that small fire of persistence for more.
smiles* i hope this lasts
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12:38 AM
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A new post to start off. Have noticed that my recent posts were all filled with unhappiness. Perhaps blogging is really one of the better ways to let off your fustrations bahx. It's really an avenue to get things off your chest and say wad you want literally.
Anyway, nothing much to update. Just that the stupid bimbotic roomie of mine is having some birthday party. ha. guess i have no choice but to be pulled in to help with all the preparations. boo to her. And her theme? FLOWER POWER. gee.
Anyway I'm currently in IT lab 1 doing my fyp. sigh. when will all of this be over? I can't wait to really start working. I mean. I feel that whatever we are learning are just kind of a franework. that will just mildly prepare us for the tenacities of working life.
What exactly am i afraid of anyway? many things in fact. but nevertheless, I am fairly contented with my life now. fairly i say.
k lah. Just trying to create a short happy and simple post to remind myself of the simplicity of life. or not.
tricia signs off.
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2:34 PM
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Just when i thought things were going to be fine.
"Seriously I think you lack some basic courtesy here" = is like a total insult to me. are you trying to say that i'm an impolite person?
Do you think I wouldn't know that it is not nice to ask someone for help and tell the person that it's okay we really don't need your help now that we are going through the proper channels?! Do you think I even feel nice bothering her in the first place?!
today the topic of a hr part-time job was brought up. I really don't know wad to say. though you say i will get a full time hr job. but is getting a part-time hr job now of utmost importance?
I kinda wished hsu chieh hadn't brought up the topic of ww today. So wad if they can't find someone. they called rebecca. not me.
you just seem so good at everything you do. i know for sure you'll get a decent job in the future. but as of now, you don't hold a part-time job too. maybe it's your timetable. maybe you don't have the time. am i just meeting up to your expectations or mine? it's such a blur now. i don't want to think. the pressure is mounting. leave me alone and leave me be. and sorry if you are disappointed with me.
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1:00 AM
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