the me as i am now

I may have erred in some or many of the decisions i made. but i don't regret them.

looking back on this date at this time, has in fact made me a tad prouder of myself.

wad do i pride myself on?

i pride myself on the stubborness of me. i pride myself of what i have achieved. i pride myself on not giving up and pulling through. i pride myself of who and what i have moulded myself to be and have become. i pride myself that i was able to experience what i was able to experience, that sense of determination, that sense of nothingness, the depressing times, and the grit it through all and pull through it times that i had for myself.

looking back i tell myself i am confident of what i have managed to achieve albeit not much, but a small motivation for what lies further, a small stepping stone to walk a further distance, as what joan and me would used to say =)

i pride myself on the many little things of myself.

but this pride will not ride over me. it will instead serve as a reminder to the better that i might have achieved, to that small fire of persistence for more.

smiles* i hope this lasts