how do i put this..
certain things are hard to say, yet...
i don't know why people wanna judge themselves, nor do things that they don't really like. if you don't like the way things are done, then why bother doing them in the first place?
it's not just about pleasing every one. if you think yourself to be wad you are, and you know how you're like, then you really shouldn't complain about the way things are done.
wad's wrong with just being yourself? even if you have flaws so wad? your friends will accept you for you are, and you don't have to bother to change because of how others percieve you.
sometimes i feel so torn between. sometimes i don't know wad to say. sometimes i can't help it, but lose myself on the way. you feel that things will remain as they are coz it's the way it has always been. but you're wrong. things change with them. and they can't always remain the same. sometimes there's this give and take cycle, where there are things that you have to let go and let live. maybe you just don't understand me at all.
ahz. so many things. okay. maybe not a lot. and i may seem like i'm speaking in riddles. but at least i guess, it will make sense to me. i don't know how to put this across, but things aren't very right at the moment.
haha, when things are not right, i'll think of zir. it's just seems so easy when he shrugs off a problem with the " F*** off " attitude. but how do i explain, how do i comprehend the stuff that's happening.
someone is being such a bastard. and i can't believe i said that. but yes. after such a long time, i.. guess i can conclude this much. but then again maybe i'm wrong. but seriously, now, i don't care anymore.
ahz. i shoudn't blog anymore. getting more and more disillusioned.
posted by tricia, me and i at
3:14 AM
