sometimes the people around you always seem to be so busy when you're not.
sometimes in the midst of their busy-ness they forget your existence.
hmmmz. i don't deny that i am not like that. but i am not always like that.
actually i don't know wad i want to get out of posting this post. wad is it that i really wanna understand. see. adult life is so complicated. and the thing is, i'm not even an adult yet. scary huh.
people change as time moves on. but to me, they're actually evolving. some of them change so much that they have practically evolved into someone i do not know at all.
then after wad seems like a millenium, they suddenly pop up one day and say "hello!". haha, to me, i'm not complaining or saying that they suddenly chat you up coz they have some kinda motive in mind. like maybe you've become some millionaire overnight and suddenly everyone claims to be the bestest friend you've ever had kinda thing.
to me it just seems weird.
sometimes the person you feel closest to might not even be feeling the same way as you do. you may think he/she is your closest friend in the world. but he/she might not necessarily feel the same way.
i guess life's like that.
sometimes you think you know someone well enough?
but turns out to be, well is never enough.
then you'll start to feel that hey, who is this person i know.
and the worse thing is that you cannot find an explaination to this new found stranger. it sucks when you have this kinda feeling.
and also not to forget, the person might probably not even know wad you're thinking about. these random thoughts in your head that's making you feel fustrated.
and so i have decided. i want to be the best of friend that i can be in my capacity to that person. i guess i should trust that evolution is good. though not necessarily the best.
i believe that deep down somewhere, there'll always be a small part that's not gonna evolve.
haha, and actually after typing so much. i still don't understand wad is it that i wanna understand.
wad is the answer that i am seeking for? wad is it that i wanna tell myself?
hmmm... =S
=P
posted by tricia, me and i at
12:14 AM
