these few days in hall have been a mixed feeling for me. i'm enjoying hall life actually. coz the freedom's really a lot more than wad i have at home. but i can't deny that my parents have really gave in to me a lot.
i like working late nights. it's peaceful, silent and soothing.. something that my papa won't understand coz he's forever chasing me to bed. but it's such an irony that he actually asks if i wanna watch some 3 am soccer match with him all the time. haha
but then sometimes you can feel really left out, coz.. you have to know where your restrictions are. guilt and confusion are just but two of the emotions i feel from time to time. i guess it's normal. with tutorials that i'm trying to understand plus living the hall life with the best people i could have ever asked for. i guess at certain periods in your life, you have to get used to doing stuff alone. loneliness is not to be feared. to me doing stuff alone gives me an independent feeling in a positive way =)
when things don't go the way you want them to i guess we shouldn't feel more or less disappointed. there's always a reason for the way things happen. but sometimes it's just not fair! hmphz. i don't like i don't like i don't like i don't like. =(
things go awry when you want them to be fine. the worse is when you expected it to happen and it really happened. i really thought i could be wrong, but i turned out to be so right. but since i expected it. it's fine. really. haha..
wad you deem important, might not be the way others see them. alright. that's it then. why do i even bother sometimes. haha, oh well.
don't wanna blog ready. tricia is the best! night~
posted by tricia, me and i at
1:13 AM
