i went for the christian festival of praise yesterday.
it's kinda weird that i'm a freethinker, yet i wear the buddhist bracelet and go for christian concert gigs. well, they're not exactly gigs but just christians songs which i happen to like.
anyway, it was really an eye-opener coz it was a fairly large scale event. it was on a larger scale than wad i had seen in downtown east for the planetshakers gig. i was amazed at how many christians we had in singapore. but still, keith told me that buddhist still had the largest number of followers? haha, weird.
i went to study with joan at the airport before going to meet keith they all at kallang station. in the end only me keith yisheng mavis and joan met. and we literally walked to the indoor stadium. haha, not bad lah. was quite a short distance. but walking at kallang there brings back memories of our canoeing days.
and even though we were like about, 3 4 hours early? there was this long line of people queueing up le! it made me think about how i went about 5 hours early for the linkin park concert too! haha!
then down there we join kaisheng, kahlisah, boon rui, zheng yang.. yupz. the rest i don't really know. haha, and i saw like sherron carol and estella. which surprisingly, they all recognised me! haha, i mean for sherron and carol it's not surprising or wad.. but estella waved at me?
hmmz.. the concert was fun! i enjoyed myself! the songs were nice and to my liking as usual. it's weird that, i like the songs a lot, yet to me, the lyrics and the meaning that the songs hold means nothing to me? they may be songs of worship or praise for the lord, but i have no lord, no religion, and i'm no believer. haha, and for this, i'm glad that joan and keith understands this fact and never have they once forced me to go for any of the concerts nor to so fervently convert me to a christian like others who would just pop out of nowhere on the streets and ask you to come for this and that.
haha, i guess joan and keith encourages me to go with no obligations whatsoever and they respect my decision at being neutral on religious stuff. thank you!
the concert really brought back memories of the linkin park concert where i jumped and sang along.. except that at the festival of praise, i jumped, but couldn't really bring myself to sing the songs. i guess it's a kind of principle thingy, where i told myself that if i'm not a christian, i can only enjoy the songs but not sing along. coz by singing along, it would not only mean that i'm praising the lord himself, but to me it will be like committing myself towards the first step of christianity.
yet, i'm grappling with another logical reasoning that since i've already taken the first step to go, i shouldn't deny myself the joy of singing along and jumping. haiz. so many decisions, so many choices. in the end, i decided to sing along for certain songs that i thought the lyrics to be fairly okay. haha, weird me huh. but i guess i have to follow the principles i have set for myself in life. coz they're what i believe in.
yupz. and i made new friends like boon rui and zhen yang.. and got to know kaisheng and kahlisah better. hee. and we all went for dinner after that. it's so weird huh. haha, but nevertheless i really had fun. thanx!
yupz.. actually bey asked me to go watch fireworks tmr? but then it starts at 12 midnight! that's fairly late. and yeahz. my mummy was not very happy with the idea and told me not to go. sorry bey! but anyway i was planned on using the holidays to mug. i have to push myself and work really hard now.
speaking of going out.. i just realised that the canoeist have not gone out for a long time. haha, we used to eat lunch every saturday, but now all these have changed. it's weird. they've been part of my life for so long and yet now everything changes. instead i see the j1s taking over, and bonding like we did! haha, so i'm happy for them!
it's been a really long entry.. but i guess i need to get my thoughts down. but anyway, it's my blog right? so i uess i'm free to write anything no matter how long nor short?
i read the newspapers, and they compared blogging to keeping a diary. haha, i guess keeping a diary entitles you with more privacy? afterall, that's wad a diary is for isn't it? but blogging takes away all that. unless of course you've kept your blog add a secret. but blogging means to keep an online diary. and a diary is suppose to be private. so, there's something wrong right?
aiyah! i don't know! so many questions so little answers. haha, i need to not think but study. but then i have so much stuff on my mind. i guess i should go listen to linkin park now. i can always count on them no matter if i'm happy or sad. hee.
and tricia goes off! she's listening to her linkin park!
i wanna run away,
never say goodbye.
i wanna know the truth,
instead of wondering why.
i wanna know the answers,
no more lies.
i wanna shut the door,
and open up my mind.
posted by tricia, me and i at
1:30 PM
