yay!
i'm glad most of my major papers are over le. left only paper one and two for econs and paper 3 for physics..
well.. not to say that they're not really very major, but.. hee.
was watching the i have a date with a vampire part 3 just now. wow. i watched like 5 vcds in 6 hours! but it's really damn addictive. then for that 6 hours i left my handphone in the room.. so.. aiyo. sorry for those who msged me.
that day after maths paper.. i was chatting with wan yuan on the phone. haha, it's really damn long since i last chat with her. and i found out that she has a cat! kitten to be exact. but then it made me realise just how much i know of her life now.. and i don't really like cats.
frankly i was surprised that she got herself one.. coz we were all crazy over dogs during secondary school days.. haha, yeah. and it's name was straffe.
anyway i'm so glad that we're going to meet up soon. probably after a levels? hopefully it's sooner. there's so much i would like to say but so little time. so much i have kept, so much i want to tell her.
and yeah. about my sentiments about blogging.. haha, that day joan came to read my blog. then she told me that since it's my blog, i should have the freedom to write whatever i want one it. be it names or things that i can't mention.. things that i can't express myself. actually she's right. that's wad a blog is for isn't it?
but then again.. how many of us have actually been able to do that?
so.. i thought...
1) no one can safely criticise anyone without hurting that person. but they can criticise everyone without anyone being hurt. i.e everyone in the whole wide world sucks. (just joking)
2) it's ironic to know that the blog is yours, and you can blog about practically anything, but do you really use real names when you're unhappy about certain things?
3) people always say they don't mind if others speak ill of them in their blogs, but the truth is they do. no matter how much they try and deny it.
4) whatever that is being blogged at that moment, is for that moment. be it your feelings or emotions or anything that has to be said. it is only instantenous for that moment, and the blogger may not even mean whatever that is being said after that
5) and anyway, no offence meant, but USUALLY when people ask you about the people that you're unwilling to mention in your blog, it means..
a. either it's them and they're guilty,
b. it's their friend and they wanna make sure..
c. it's none of the above but they just wanna make sure.
d. they're just purely being concerned.
6) no matter wad you blog, you know that surely there's someone who's bound to read whatever you blog. it's just subconsciously at the back of your mind.
7) no matter what you may say, should anyone criticises your entries on your blog, can you say you're not the least affected?
8) i think whatever i said above might not really make much sense. but i'm bored.
9) i decided i felt like typing lots today hence this not-so-dumb-not-so-true-not-so-wrong analogy.
10) and yes. for this entry. either you get it or you don't.
despite the fact that i know you're using me, i still give in, always telling myself that that's really is going to be the last time. yet how many last times am i going to tell myself? after pondering it through for a damn long time, i realised that as long as you're my friend, i carry the hope that one day you will realise whatever the hell you're doing now is not very right. to me at least.
maybe one day.. you'll realise that i'm always there.
tricia signs off feeling damn restless. hee. see ya.
posted by tricia, me and i at
5:31 PM
