hello all.
it's been ages since my last post.
hope you all are still there.
i'm at nbs reading room now. alone. finishing up my assignments and trying to finish my 3 pending projects on hand. how great is that.
suddenly i stop and look around, and have this urge to blog.
i've gotten so tired of constantly being a mad rush. as i've said before and i'm saying it again. maybe uni isn't really the educational instituition meant for me. in fact i feel that it is fake and money grabbing. seriously if you want to educate us, why do we need to pay a high price just to learn something?
funny right. and what's with being highly ranked in the board of the best universities of the world?
3 projects pending. 1 law assignment to hand in. and much more readings to catch up with. will working be better? i doubt so too. maybe i should just continue taking up part time studies while working.
i pon my selection and recruitment module today. ha. first pon of the year faced with disapproval from xu. aiyah. but i couldn't care much now. it's only my first pon of the year. sick and tired of being the guai kid or the guai group memeber who does her revision and work. it's stifiling and suffocating in here.
and no i'm not going through a state of depression. i'm just lamenting on the way things are now.
for a moment, i want to go back home, to the protective comfort of my family where i know i will be safe and sound.
don't really feel like staying in hall anymore. just that the convenience of it complements my laziness.
well, many many birthday parties coming up next! to all my friends who are turning 21 this year! happy birthday! and yeah. it's really great to have met up with friends at birthday parties. great get togethers but pocket burning too.
it's like a stress reliever for that moment.
hate unis. screws up my periods.
always always after a long break from uni, i'll be back in school. and that's where my menstratual cycle becomes haywired and screwed. no i'm not pregnant. guess it happens when i'm feeling stress. which always happens once term starts. sucks.
but it doesn't matter. as long as i am on the positive side of life, nothing can possibly go so wrong.
sometimes xu comments that i'm not understanding enough. is it really? i also don't know. there's no best practices for being a good gf. maybe i really don't care about his stuff as much as he cares about mine. is it good or bad?
but it really isn't intentional on my part. sometimes i really do forget stuff. or rather most of the time.
my attachment results are also not out! so bloody freaking slow.
alright. hoping for more time and more meet ups to come!
waiting for the guys to come uni this year too! maybe things will be better when we get together as a group!
so long. ta~
